Looking Up

[Heywyre]

Oh I will definitely NOT say a word, regardless of what the shoes look like (even though they are my most expensive ones - lol) it would be worth it just to have his ego a little fluffed up right

After the second bomb H said he didn't think it would bother me (ya right - thanks a lot!) because I am "so strong" - now if that isn't cry saying "no body needs me"

So, yes, I have to walk a fine line when it comes to the independence because he says one of the reasons he married me was how strong and independent I was/am but on the other hand, he wants to feel needed and I'm not giving him that.

What I have been doing through, is asking him his opinion of things. I kinda did it before, but now I am putting a little more emphasis on it, getting into deeper conversations and instead of just saying, "what do you think I should do", which doesn't show much independence, I basically ask a number of questions, letting him know I value his opinion and will use it to make my own decision (thus the combination of the independence and still "needing" him. It's a fine line indeed

Well, he informed me today that he is going to "fight night" but also committed me to going to (agggrrrrr - wasn't exactly what I had in mind for Saturday night) but said it was okay because before he committed he wanted to make sure the guy's wife was going to be there so I "wouldn't be alone" - so I guess I have to commend him for that, right? I kinda blew it by saying I would have preferred to just stay home for the evening (not saying he did, just me) but that if he would prefer that I go too, that was alright too (and just cringed inside). Sometimes its hard to determine whether it is what they actually want or not. Sheesh, why can't they just tell us and be more clear - yikes!! And they say women are hard to understand