I have been reading and reading. We are all very alike.
I hope you do start enjoying yourself. It is difficult to break the habit of worry and obsession but it is possible. Finding things to laugh about with your kids helps a lot. Lately, my advice to anyone with marital problems is to get a dam dog. They are so preferable to bad spouses. Dogs are understanding AND devoted! My little dog sort of stinks, but at least I know where he has been rolling!!
Penny, I am older than you. I do understand the implications of being betrayed at this late date. Financial worries that are VERY real get twisted in with the awfulness of being betrayed. It is a fearful combination. Just keep on trying to make things right. Good luck to all of us.
