Rosy is in MLC now - Part 2

[Rosy_Times]

H wants to go out and "talk" one night next week. Not sure what good its going to do at this point and not sure what he wants to say. He sent me several emails yesterday....all about how he's still upset about "this" and is trying to figure it out. I don't think its going to get us anywhere in a positive fashion. More like closure on the whole situation.

My feelings for him have changed. I don't trust him anymore and I'm not sure I want to try to go back there. I already did it once or so I thought about seven years ago. I don't have the energy to do it again; at least right now.

I love him for the person he is but I'm definately not in love with him anymore. I thought I gave and gave and gave myself 100% to him and us but just not in the way that he wanted. I am much happier being alone than I've been in so long.

At this point, I would only be going back for our son and as much as I want that, I know its not enough and it wouldn't work.

I just hope he continues going to therapy. I'm going to do the same. Who knows what the future brings? I'm happy with the here and now and that's all that matters in this moment.