Ellie...So happy to be able to catch up with your life again and post. I had to giggle when you said your H's laptop was running on W98. Heck, that's what I'm using. I just keep adding memory.
I just wanted to say thanks for stopping by and posting. Although we haven't communicated much, your concise words were enough to help me see clearly what I thought was fuzzy but it really wasn't.
Amazing what a 3rd party can point out to me that I wasn't able to see before, especially someone that just read a soundbite of my life. I mean that postiviely, like I wish I had that clarity and sureness about my own stuff.
Had a sad moment today - Was dropping my D off at high school freshman orientation. My father died at the end of my first week of high school - suddenly, unexpectedly, of a heart attack. Seeing how young my D is, it just hit me, feeling so sad for that little girl that was me.
Ellie, I'm sorry for the sadness. Though it's good you recognize it for what it is, and why.
It's funny how our family's stories come back like this through the generations. I can anticipate the grief I may feel when I turn 50 (the age of my mother when she died) or when my daughter turns 25 (the age I was at the time of the crash that killed both my folks).
So are you going to do something to nurture that bereft high school girl in you today? An ice cream soda maybe, or sneak out for an afternoon matinee? Are you going to reflect with your H about this moment?
