But, I will say this! Keep DBing and work on you, just because you are D doesn't mean it's over! He will now find out that it wasn't you, but him. Shine that light on you! And show him you can rise above this!
We are all with you, that's obvious. You will be ok....in fact I think your life will turn out great, eventually. You have so many skills developed and are so supportive of all of us. ((((((((((((H2O)))))))))))))))
Quote: But, I will say this! Keep DBing and work on you, just because you are D doesn't mean it's over! He will now find out that it wasn't you, but him. Shine that light on you! And show him you can rise above this!
The light is within you....let it shine...others will see it and will be drawn to you, I'm certain.
Well Tues night and Wed were pretty rough days. I cannot thank all of you enough for your good thoughts and prayers.
XH and I did talk Tues night in the middle of the night. I will spare a lot of the details. Suffice it to say that it was quite emotional.
Wed night XH paged me about 12:30am: XH: Sleep well W: wow i must have since I didn’t hear this at all last night. Looks like u were up in the middle of the night. you know I’m here for u day or night. XH: No your not W: sorry you feel that way. all you have to do is call. XH: Calling
At this point I called his cell and it rang, no answer, I left a message that I was calling him back and that I was here if he needed anything.
Last night he called and we talked for awhile. He wanted me to visit this weekend. But never came right out and said, "water, I would like you to visit".
I told him that I am very tender right now and he knows what it means to me to be with him and what I am looking for in a R. I told him that I didn't want to be played, I'm not a fling or a Ho. He wanted to know if I felt like I have been played in the past. I said yes. He got a little miffed. Said that I was amazing and why did I think that? I said you were with me while you were with someone else and didn't tell me. That set him off onto the "well let's look at your past, do you want to talk about that?" I said yes. He said he was going to bed. He truly believes that I have been unfaithful to him and have never told him.
I sent him the following page in the night, and his replys: W: I have done things wrong in the past and for that I am truly sorry. I am NOT that person any more. I am open to taking the first step toward building an awesome relationship. To taking each others hand and each of us helping the other over the hurdles we face with compassion, respect, trust and love. We have both been hurt and I am confident of me to be able to hold you tight while we mend together and see the phenomenal things that are possible in the future. XH: Time heals all wounds and making love always helps W: yes I agree, I have time and making love with me means your the only one. XH: I should be the only one. W: YOU ARE! so should I. That is the last I have heard from him.
OK so now what?
Probably a good thing but there aren't any flights to Seattle tonight or tomorrow!
I do want to see him and I want to do all the things I have said to him. I get the feeling that he feels I am being too restrictive on him. That I am asking him to commit to me. I have told him I'm not asking him to marry me, just to make the first of many steps. But to me, that means I am the only one. I'm worth that. Especially now that ALL ties are broken.
you know I’m here for u day or night.
