It’s funny just when I start to think that all is lost and that I’ve given up I hear about something else that offers some kind of hope in understanding and possible improving my sit. After years of battling life with a LD wife I found this board and when the wife blew off the SSM book I thought I was done…now I found myself looking for more information, books etc. So the question I keep asking myself is this, am I being stubborn and dedicated or delusional and stupid. My sit hasn’t changed in 20 years why would it change now?
Speaking of me continuing my delusion - I keep reading about love languages and filling the tank etc… I’m guessing this comes from a book. Can someone point me to the source?
At some point you have to realize you are beating your head against the wall and the only thing that will get hurt is you. I don't know when that is but I’ve always been overly optimistic so I realize I tend to overdo things. Normally the wife is the one to bring me to reality, but she’s not here for this one. I’m the type that will keep beating on the wall until it falls down or I lose consciousness and right now I’m starting to feel light headed 
an understandable feeling. The book linked above may help you to see the door as craked open anyway...wich may ease some of the tension wich inturn may create a solution to the problem. As long as you don't view it as a solution but instead a new way of looking at it. Sometimes that's all it takes.