mac - thanks for stopping by, i will be posting another tomorrow!
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POSITIVES
1) hubby woke up this morning with sore ankles and knees, i didn't ask, i just went over to him and told him, gimmie your leg and i started rubbing them for him, both of them - he seemed very pleased
2) fixed breakfast for me two days in a row
3) gave me a nice hug before i left for my bible study this afternoon, and i could definitely see him give me a once over (i dressed really nice and did my hair - and i was wearing perfume) - hehe - he noticed
until tomorrow!
woohoo - four days in a row of posting my positives, oh yeah, this is gonna be a good year
1) he called me last night on his way home from charlotte with the boys to ask me what the final decision was on the whole california trip - so we talked a bit about that - it shows me that he is concerned about my thoughts on it
2) he wanted to know if i would stay up and watch him play his video game some more last night, i told sure!!!
3) discussing finances this morning - he sees how hard i am working on scheduleing things and he printed out a schedule this morning for his work, anytime he does this, things go well for him
4) i got rewarded for NOT snooping! LOL - let me explain, for the past several days - i noticed that hubby was writing a letter using word on his computer, and when i passed by his room he would always hide the letter - oh my mind went crazy with wonder - this morning he printed out the letter and he said - would you go grab that letter for me - i wrote it to such and such and see if it makes sense - whew - i read it and it was a letter directed to a situation that he has been dealing with in his head for the last 45 days - i didn't realize he was going to write this guy with this, so i was relieved and THANKFUL i resisted the urge to SNOOP!!!
WOOHOO
day 5 of operation GET A LIFE and loving every minute of it
lots and lots of reading and focusing on ME - GOALS are helping SO MUCH - when i keep busy with what is making me feel good, i am not worried about my sitch as much
goals!!!!
how important it is to be focused on oneself instead of wallowing in misery
rachel, it's hard to detach since we are living in the same house, there are regular things that need to be accomplished on a day to day basis
i detached from his DRAMA - i am not affected by his moods, i will NOT take the blame for his indescritions, but by working on my issues that i feel contributed to the downswing of our marriage, i am showing him i am going on with my life
i have become mostly a friend living in the same house, letting him have his space to deal with HIS issues, they are NOT my issues, i have my OWN issues to work on
Kitti, That's great that you can live in the same house and still each work on your issues.
I don't think it would work if my H came home at this point because he really does not want to be home right now.
I'm not really sure why excet I think he thinks I'll never forgive him and he'll have to put up with my suspicions and resentment forever.
Thing is, I could get over all that if he moved a LITTLE to help. He's not willing and the way he treats me frankly I don't want to be with him. I want more. Rachael
I LOVE this!