Oh, sorry, I had to laugh at your self description:
Quote: I'm sure you're right, I just wonder if it can happen for someone as high-strung and fear-drenched as me. (
No, not perhaps what you're thinking, but because I can't imagine anyone as highstrung (God I HATED that term...even had it used as a "reason" I developed UlcerativeColitis ) and fear drenched as I used to be.
Seriously, Jeannine, I may not suffer panic often, per se, but in the midst of my Generalized Anxiety Disorder, especially when it dipped into depression, I was FARRRR from care-free! I was over-reactive to the point of jumping when the phone rang (this was pre bombs), unable to decide anything...totally fear driven.
And here I am...so YES it CAN happen to you!!! And I have a strong hunch that it WILL!
Okay, I posted and then remembered that I forgot to comment on forgetfulness.
I KNOW that since the bombs my memory retrieval has been sporadically horrid. I just blank on stuff that would normally be right there. I notice it even in my lectures...Not good.
But not bad enough to experiment by going off the meds. No way, not going back THERE. Not until and if I can really manage on my own.
Good news on the medical front so far, and keep on packing on the pounds. Live for today, and don't let the "paranoid" you write your future for you. NOW is all that counts right now.
Oh yeah...the "memory thing" has been a big issue for me lately, too. My short-term memory has always been pretty bad, but during times of depression, it has been particularly bad.
I was trying to described it to H...and how frightening it is. "Maybe you have a brain tumor", H said. Thank you, Nurse H--I appreciate your diagnosis (NOT!).
I heard once that the average person can only reasonably hold about 5 things at a time in short-term memory, no matter how intelligent they are. That made be feel a bit better.
Still....I want a RAM upgrade!!!
Can I come to the party? I may have to be there in spirit only, as I'm a west coaster & most of you guys are way out east.
P.S. J, I'm so relieved that the tests are not showing anything awful!
Jeannine, I'm SO glad that your test is over and that they did not find anything serious. And that's great that you are able to eat lots and put on some weight. We are all pulling for you!
My H often talks about being "antsy", too. He likes to go for drives, walks, bike rides, too. It used to freak me out, but I know that he will probably always be that way...a combination of an addictive personality that always craves motion, probably some adult ADHD, and restless leg syndrome that he struggles with (I'm sure all of those things are related.) Anyway, now I don't take it personally, although I would prefer to spend the time with him instead of apart from him.
And here I am...so YES it CAN happen to you!!! And I have a strong hunch that it WILL!
Considering your wit and great attitude after all you've been through, your words are very encouraging. A good sense of humor can be a wonderful coping skill, so in that regard, I'd say we're all doing quite well. Eh?
Okay, I posted and then remembered that I forgot to comment on forgetfulness.
) and fear drenched as I used to be.
