ILYBINILWY - OW - what to do next 3

[Treasur]

So sorry for your loss, SJW, and glad your H is being decent. Let us know on Thursday if Friday will work for you, if it won't, please don't worry about it x

[SJW]

Thanks Treasur

Should be fine but will confirm Thursday afternoon/evening. Liverpool Street station main ticket office 12.00?

SJ x

[AnotherStander]

Very sorry to hear about your dad passing SJW! How are you doing?

[Citygrl]

So sorry to hear about your Dad. I can understand how busy you are with family. Hope you can make it and we can be a welcome distraction. Completely understand if it won't work. Take care of yourself.

[Treasur]

Yup. Hope you're ok x

[Benito]

Hope your OK x

[Parkema]

Sorry for your loss SJ

Take care.

[Holding]

SJ, I'm so sorry your father passed.

[CW2017]

likewise

[SJW]

Last Friday was my Dad's funeral. I think we did him proud and H was incredibly supportive. Now I don't have the focus of the funeral arrangements to distract me I have gone backwards in terms of DBing in my sitch.

H wants to completely forget about it draw a line under his 'mistake' and work on a future for us. I need to know every single detail so I can process it deal with it and move to the next stage whatever that may be. He doesn't understand this and asks why I want to torture myself. I've explained that the imagination is far worse than fact and yesterday morning I thought he had actually got it. Then last night he forwarded me a message he had received from OW making reference to a diary and saying I know you have only left me to be with your kids and W is part of that package. I am devastated about the diary (which conveniently he threw away) but also the fact that he clearly hasn't told her straight that he doesn't want to be with her he has used the kids as an excuse.

I lost it with him on the phone last night and haven't heard from him this morning apart from him ringing our S as he was going on a school trip.

So I guess it's back to the drawing board for me. I had my first IC session on Monday and have another next week. H has his 3rd IC tonight if he goes. Feeling pretty rubbish today almost as bad as BD day.