I haven't been able to exercise much as I live very rurally and between work and my S, I haven't had time for formal exercise. I am making choices to walk, take the stairs, and move whenever I can though.
I wish I could say my sleep is restful...many strange dreams and repeated awakenings. But it is nice that I can just drop off.
Some days I really do feel like I'm ready for this, but then other days I just grieve. Maybe when he leaves I can feel more settled.
Considering my H's work schedule and what is best for our son, we have agreed on a 60/40 split at the moment. He will spend every other weekend with dad and two days/two nights every week. I have no desire to keep my H away from our son as I want him to have a great relationship. Just stinks though.
E
M 46 / H 43 T 24/M 18 S 4 11/6/2014 ILYBNILWY 1/16/2015 Living in separate bedroom 1/8/2016 H moved out
E, I haven't been on here for a while. I'm so sorry to hear things have been moving fast. It does stink, as a mother I fully understand that while you want him to have a relationship with his father, he is also your world right now.
Do something for you, whatever gives you a moment of happiness.
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
How is everybody doing? I'm going to check out some threads tonight and hope to post.
I feel like I'm going through the motions lately and just surviving. My counselor tells me this is normal, but I'm just ready the waves of grief not to come so often.
My H is moving out the second week of January. Maybe this is what he has to do to find himself. He couldn't move out before then as the lease wasn't available. He told me last week and I had such a split reaction. Part of me was happy because it's put off a bit more, and then maybe I can pretend some more, at least for my son. The larger part was frustrated because until he moves out, I'm still in limbo land.
E
M 46 / H 43 T 24/M 18 S 4 11/6/2014 ILYBNILWY 1/16/2015 Living in separate bedroom 1/8/2016 H moved out
E! Welcome back. Sorry you're still in limbo. I think the difference between limbo and post limbo is like being in hell, and then being in hell with sunscreen. It's still no fun.
Can you fill us in a bit more on how you've been taking care of yourself and if you've seen any changes in either your H, or your own experience?
I'm sending you a big hug,
PP
Last edited by PigPen; 12/15/1503:42 AM.
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
Hi PP! Well, let's start with my H. He's been a Jeckyl and Hyde for the last few months. There are days where he basically ignores me and other days where he asks me to go out and eat with him. We've laughed more, and he has opened up a little more about what's going on with him, or his inability to understand. I think it's good that he's willing to talk. After each talk though, he retreats again. I am learning to just give him his space. I used to try repeatedly to find out what was wrong as I always thought it was my fault. (Co-dependent stuff). Now I say hi and do my own thing.
I haven't been doing a great job taking care of myself, but I'm surviving. Mostly not getting the sleep, talking on here, and eating junk, although I'm still losing weight. I'm noticing that my body is more toned due to my increased activity.
How's that for an update?
*Hugs* E
M 46 / H 43 T 24/M 18 S 4 11/6/2014 ILYBNILWY 1/16/2015 Living in separate bedroom 1/8/2016 H moved out
Thank you for the update. I"m sorry your H is being bi polar. The opening up slightly is a good sign, even if he's still driving you crazy. My heart goes out to you for having to live with someone that treats you with so much volatility.
Is there a way for you to take better care of yourself? Maybe checking in here every day or two with an update that has one small thing you can do for yourself? Momentum is a powerful force and can start with just a tiny step. I still make my bed every morning because of Cali Guy.
I'm glad you're getting more toned, support your body with good foods and it will reward you not only with external displays of improvement, but internal ones as well. I find that starting off the day with purposefully choosing the most healthy breakfast possible sets the tone for the day. Sounds trite, but it's true.
Please keep posting too, I know at this point in my sitch I'm just doing it to keep accountable and hopefully lend a new poster something to look at.
Sending you a big hug,
PP
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
Funny, because of Cherry and Bob, I make my bed every morning and make sure I look my best when I leave the room. Even on those sleepy mornings with my little guy.
As I have been dealing with the ups and downs of my sitch, I have found myself once more retreating into a shell, getting less sleep, and more emotional. When I do the right things for myself, I do better and feel stronger, you are absolutely right!
My counselor brought it up last night that I hadn't mentioned coming on here for support and she felt that I really needed to. I was able to tell her that I had started earlier in the week to catch up with sitches and come back on.
It really is hard sometimes to see the forest for the trees though.
Thanks for the hugs. I need them.
*hugs right back* E
M 46 / H 43 T 24/M 18 S 4 11/6/2014 ILYBNILWY 1/16/2015 Living in separate bedroom 1/8/2016 H moved out
