I have this weird need to be at my house? It just feels safe and homie even if alone. I am not sure what to make of it. I sill miss family living. I miss school buses. I miss kids in the hood. Most are now in their late teens. It all happened so fast. I have this strong urge to be home. I cant explain it. I think i havent trully let go..the thought of losing my home makes me crazy.. i am not sure why this is going on in my head. Today i made home made bread. 2 loafs. And im by myself the whole week? Yesterday I walked by a frozen turkey. It just made me go back to previous thanksgiving.
Does it ever go away?
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”
We often think that our past should just be blocked out when we move on and are even happy! It's always there, it's a part of your life story. Just remember that feelings come and feelings go, we amplify them the more we dwell on them and try to figure them out. Your house was a part of your life, a good part and always will be. It's OK to miss it. I visit my old house frequently to pickup and dropoff my kids... and we still have family celebrations there...but it's no longer my house. What is is.
