Avanti - yes. I'm as prepared as I can be. I try not to get hopeful, but it's hard not to - I think it's why I purposefully try to put a negative spin on things, so that when the worst happens it won't blindside me. What a horrible way to behave!
I need your 2x4's like most people need water. LOL
Please don't ever change.
Just yesterday TxHubby reminded me that a M can be saved with just ONE person working at it. I forgot all about that when I decided to label H as MLC and give up before we even got started.
You reminded me not to believe anything coming out of their mouths, and focus on their actions. What am I doing? Listening to what's spewing from H's mouth.
I've spent the day polishing resume, applying for jobs, and took a short walk. I'll take another, longer one this evening when it cools down a bit.
Have I told you lately how thankful I am for my online DB friends? I would be so very lost without you. Thank you, all of you.
Wanted to show my support. You've got great advice here, so you don't need more!
I particularly like what Avanti said- consult your plan, not your feelings. Avanti, I am borrowing that one for myself, I think I need to write it down and carry it with me. That was profound. Also, I have to admit I consult songs too much and am easily swayed by the emotional content of whatever is on the radio, so pretty much every 4 minutes or so I go through a whole new range of emotions. Gotta work on that or find an uplifting playlist and don't turn on the radio.
Ancaire, I hope you have a peaceful night. I am also updating my resume, its a big step forward. You are going to make it through this.
I haven't been posting much but I wanted to reach out and let you know I'm following you and all of the advice you've been given is so good. Ancaire, you are in my prayers
God Bless this LBS family. What tremendous support.
Photoka, I, too, am easily swayed by emotions so much lately, whether it be songs on the radio or reacting to what someone has said or wallowing in my feelings. I hope I can take a page from the wisdom of Avanti's post and find the strength and forward thinking both you and Ancaire are demonstrating every day!
M 43 H 48 M 19y T 20y D 14 S 12 H returned home from out of country 8/8/15 BD 8/11/15 EA Began end of June/beginning of July 2015; ongoing PA H denies ILYBINILWY
Up until BD I heard my wife always playing "Bad Blood" by Taylor Swift. I can even remember thinking to myself, why does she love this song so much.
My D7 told me the other day that WW loves Photograph as well. Strange. Wonder who she is thinking about. She also played a ton of other Ed Sheeran songs and recently went to one of his concerts.
Me: 30's W: 30's M: 12yrs EA: Started 3/2015 MC Started: 4/2015 She moved out and served 6/2015 PA: Confirmed 10/5/2015 2 young kids
"If you do not stand for something you will fall for anything."
Up until BD I heard my wife always playing "Bad Blood" by Taylor Swift. I can even remember thinking to myself, why does she love this song so much.
My D7 told me the other day that WW loves Photograph as well. Strange. Wonder who she is thinking about. She also played a ton of other Ed Sheeran songs and recently went to one of his concerts.
You are letting her take up WAY too much space in your head.
Everybody hurts. It's part of life. Don't miss the good stuff.
Nerd Alert: I really like Britney Spear's, ""Toxic".
Lost, so happy to see you checking in! I've been praying for you, your dad, and the rest of your family. Please update us as soon as you can?
On a somber note, talked to H last night. He had more to tell me, I guess. He volunteered that he and OW had been planning to move away together. Thanks H. That makes me feel so much better! He says she told him when he broke it off with her that she was changing her number and moving without him. She never wants to see him or talk to him again.
I reminded him, quite calmly, that we didn't have to talk about it. I meant it when I told him I wouldn't be bringing it up outside of MC. H said, he knew, but he wanted me to know. I said okay and changed the subject.
So today, of course, I'm not quite upset - but almost. He was going to run off into the sunset with OW? Why bother to tell me that? Is he trying to make me so devastated I can never recover? I don't understand it at all.
