I realize I wasn't meeting her needs - I wasn't supportive of her work and made her uncomfortable talking about it because I was going through some tough times myself.
I thought they were just arguments and crappy things that couples get into - I didn't know my behavior was pushing her away. I wish she'd have said something.
But she chose to at least have 2 emotional affairs (possibly physical) before leaving me for a married man.
Despite being so adamant against cheating and concerned about wives who were cheated on - I also found out she was the Other Woman for two years with a married man before she met me.
I know I contributed to our problems, but I try to tell myself she chose to do this - she did stuff like this in the past. Yet I still miss her and blame myself - I feel like it's my fault.
Can somebody please help me deal with this - even in some small way?
