Azzork, PP, Teach, Zues, and Zephyr, thank you all for being so supportive today. It wasn't the best day emotionally for me, but it was a great day with my S. You know what I mean? Saw many people that asked where my H was, and I told them he was off hiking for the day. They didn't know about the day, but made me think everytime.
How did everything go so wrong? How can he be so friendly to me and considerate, but not love our family? I'm starting to wallow here. He hasn't come home yet and I so so miss him. Teach, 24 years would be an accomplishment if we were still together, but we're not. There are light years between us. Gosh I despise nights. Just make me feel the grief.
Zephyr, maybe I did turn it around, but I'm not sure it was a great job if I'm still maudlin right now. I know, grief is natural and he's not home. Just feeling miserable.
M 46 / H 43 T 24/M 18 S 4 11/6/2014 ILYBNILWY 1/16/2015 Living in separate bedroom 1/8/2016 H moved out
Elly - I discovered today that my divorce is going to completely clean me out financially. Ill be able to rebuild, but at least at the start I will have truly no money.
And then, I watched my kids swimming, and the sight of their happy faces reminded me of how worth it this all is. The time I get to spend with them is worth more than any amount of money.
Hopefully, you can find that level of contentment with your relationship with your son as well. The pain and suffering that we go through is all worth it with one smile, you know?
Oh, Azzork, I am so sorry to hear that. There's nothing that can be done?
Most days, my S and my GAL is enough. It's just this anniversary is killing me. I know I shouldn't have expectations, but all I wanted today is hang out with my family. We've done that often since this started. I just didn't think he would be completely gone the whole day. Proves that I'm not as detached as I thought...again.
M 46 / H 43 T 24/M 18 S 4 11/6/2014 ILYBNILWY 1/16/2015 Living in separate bedroom 1/8/2016 H moved out
