It will be interesting to see if they follow through on the support. This is definitely a good ol' boys sorta company and there were parts of the meeting where I was treated a bit like a child with the lecture..."We all have to do things we don't like."
Um. OK. But, No.
Anyway. Oddly enough, this morning before heading to the meeting I bolstered my confidence by sending out a few resumes.
Received an interesting email back from one. Now, it's not ideal. It's for a part-time reporter in the Finger Lakes, mostly evenings. Just a reporting/feature writing position. However, it would leave me time to write freelance in the morning and continue to homeschool. Ithaca is one of the areas where I have been looking because it has a strong homeschooling community and loads of Autism support because of Cornell. I've heard it's very artsy-craftsy too.
I happened upon a beautiful apartment right in the area where I'd be reporting. $725 for two bedrooms and nothing extra for pets. In the country, but 30 minutes or so from Ithaca where there are loads of homeschooling opportunities.
I'm sure the reporting pay is lousy, but could be a nice foundation income for other writing.
Strange how things work out.
Also, Matt sent money for D12 to attend a concert she has been dying to attend. I sent him a text saying thank you. He was obviously a little leery and sent me this jagged reply with all these questions "What are u doing about an atty" and "What are you doing about this?"
I was nice and told him whatever he told D12 must have made her feel loved and she is thrilled with the tickets. "Good job."
He loosened up quite a bit and sent me a lengthy explanation of their convo.
I was so proud of her. He was the one to bring up the concert. He asked, "How are you?"
She asked me if she should be honest. I told her this is between she and her dad. If she felt she needed to reply, then go for it.
She said, "Well, I'd be better if I could afford to attend this concert I've been looking forward to."
He said, "I sent your mom money."
She said, "Child support doesn't count as concert money."
Honestly. Didn't have a thing to do with this response. This kid seems to get her father's M.O. very well.
Anyway, turns out he sent some money, aside from child support, for the concert. She handled it. And, the ticket convo allowed her to vent some of her frustration which I think was really good for her.
Not sure where his head is at, but I appreciate that these tickets she has been working toward and obsessing about...glad they are in hand. Good seats too!!
Last edited by LoisB; 06/04/1507:15 PM.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
Heather, When you least expect it, the right position will cross your path. Keep sending out the resumes.
I'm glad Matt sent money for the concert tickets that your daughter wanted to attend. As for the other comments...he's asking about the attorney situation because it sounds like he wants to know what you are doing about the divorce. Yep, it's the ghost in the room. Funny, Bea just asked about this the other day and here he comes inquiring about your attorney.
Now that you are off probation, breathe a bit and try to relax. The next thing on your agenda is probably the divorce. I would hate to see you find a new position, accept it and then have a repeat of what happened when you accepted the current position, i.e., the legal fall out of lawyers, agreements, hearings, etc.
Take some time for Heather this weekend and try to find something fun to do w/your daughter. You both deserve to do something extra special, i.e., even if it's just a movie or finding an ice cream shop and eating ice cream.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Heather, I know what you mean. These nice gestures tend to throw you off a bit. I know that my “hope indicator” tends to go one dial up when H does something nice or unexpected. It is so much easier to think that our MLCers are not nice, I think it helps us to detach more.
In any case, we have to keep going forward and appreciate the good things that come our way. Your daughter is going to enjoy that concert and have a great time! And you can take a deep breath, relax a bit, and not worry about your job situation for a while. You deserve a break. Sending some hugs to you (((((Heather!)))))
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state
The email I received about the reporting position in the Finger Lakes, I noticed this morning, was from the publisher. The company publishes several weeklies and some regional publications.
I responded to his interest and I was honest about what I'm looking for. I took your advice Job and focused on what I'm currently responsible for and what I want and why.
D12 and I celebrated our accomplishment yesterday afternoon. Had a bit of a downer from D20 who had a mini-tantrum over the phone. She said, get this, she was upset I got the job because she was hoping I'd move to Asheville. I still may. But, at one point, she said something which really set off a nerve...something about being stuck in P.A. and alone without my help...OH! I know! She was upset when I said I wanted to come visit at the end of the month, but could only stay for two nights. She started to lay it on about my not visiting her yet and how alone she has been...yadda, yadda...
She has done fine. She is now a supervisor at her job and has arranged all the financial aid and has her classes enrolled for fall AND has an apartment.
Well, I responded to her that she had the CHOICE of staying with me. She seems to have forgotten how much I pleaded with her to stay and help and I could help, in return, by providing a place to live and food and minimal rent.
Well...That didn't go over too well. She hung up on me. D12 provided a reality check. That kid is so damn insightful.
"Mom, she's angry because we are happy and live in a cool place."
I think there's some truth. I think she bailed on the situation and, now, it's looking rosier since we stuck it out. Also, I'm doing a story on the local rescue squad. The director reminded me about the program they offer to people who want to become EMT's/paramedics. (D20 had an opportunity to pursue this on-the-job/volunteer training when she was here--she wants to become a doctor and needs to fund med school)... I gave the info the director told me and suggested she look into something like this in P.A.
School is beginning up and classes + work are looking overwhelming to her. She said she is sick of winters. I said, "Well, if you can handle all you handled in the past 5 months here, there's no reason you couldn't get things set up somewhere south.'
Anyway.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
Many of us, I've noticed, have relied heavily on our faith and maybe even developed strong faith in God where there once was none.
In fact, I feel different sometimes from the people around me. I don't know how to express this without it sounding elitist.
My sister, for instance, we just don't speak the same language anymore. I feel pressure to find God's Will for me and carry that out daily. And, it's because of a need. The pain and loss I've experienced has forced me to reach out to God on a different level. Does that make sense?
It's not that I begrudge my sister in how she chooses to live her life, but I feel driven to push myself further because of this experience. I'm different.
So, my question for the day is, brothers and sisters of faith, how do we know we are on the path that God has chosen for us?
I'm beginning to see that God doesn't worry so much about the discomfort we experience. IN FACT, I think HE sometimes forces us to experience great pain so we will learn and become bigger testimonies to His Way. Much like childbirth, we have to stretch and feel uncomfortable for a bit...maybe even learn to live with the discomfort for some years...in order to reach a greater level of understanding.
But, how do you know if you are on the right path? Since I've been wondering about this. Am I supposed to go "all in" with this little newspaper and learn how to properly manage my time and create something to be really proud of, before moving on? Am I supposed to be accepting of a period of transition right now?
I know the areas where I'm lacking...organization, prioritizing, money management, getting my needs met in person/as opposed to over the Internet, building some GAL into my daily life, etc...
Is this my path for now? Am I supposed to stop worrying and trying to find THE place for us, instead of just accepting my situation for right now and putting things in order while I'm here...
I think I just answered my own question.
That little voice in my waivers sometimes and I get confused.
I spent so much time trying to Bloom Where I'm Planted. In fact, I used to have that picture hanging in our family room...I don't want to repeat that situation. I know life is short now. But, maybe, I'm supposed to learn what I need to learn HERE, then move on...IDK.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
D20 needs a parent to apply for a Financial Aid PLUS loan. Of the two of us, I'm the more likely to be turned down which will give D20 additional grant monies/aid.
However, seems like Matt should at least be asked to shoulder the burden. Not that he will say, "Yes," mind you...but, my shoulders are a bit heavy with always being the one.
Do I dare ask him the question...even though I KNOW the answer? Is it unfair that I don't share the parental burden by asking the question?
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
