Win. I feel your pain. I understand every bit of it. That's exactly where I am right now. You can read about my last couple days and I truly can't decide anymore whether I even WANT this marriage anymore. I know she isn't "her" and I know not to believe everything. But still I can't decide if there is actually a hope to get back to a good place together.
I think that's a decision only you can make. And it won't be easy.
I know exactly how you feel. Im in the same place. One minute im convinced that im ready move on from our marriage and then the next minute i want my W back. Its so hard especially when they are nice to you. When they are nice, you feel like things might be able to work, but just be careful. Sandi says be careful, because sometimes they will act nice because they want something. Stay strong and keep focusing on yourself.
Nick
Me-35 W-34 Married 6/2011 T-6 years S-2 BD-3/22/2015