Ok I'm going to try and be as detailed as possible, so I apologize for how long this may be.
8 months ago my wife and I separated. Here's a short summary of why... she cheated on me because I was traveling at the beginning of our marriage, we got past it and had a son. Two years after the birth, cheated again, because she felt neglected during the pregnancy, which I admit I was not the best when it came to being loving during that time. I found the emails, pictures, and convo about it all, I snapped that night, I threw the pictures at her and she got in my face and I head butt her. We somehow got past it. 1 year later, she deployed overseas for 3 months, one month in, she stopped talking to me. The day she returned to the states, our sons birthday, she didn't call either of us, instead she stayed in a hotel room with a guy she met. We separated for 7 months. I went back to St Louis, moved on briefly but missed the family, she begged to have me back, so I did. Fast forward 2.5 more years, she is now out of the military, I took a promotion, we have had no infidelity problems, but I couldn't forgive... the love drifted, I neglected her, when she left to visit family we decided to separate again. This time we actually filed with the court...
Now onto the separation...
The first 2 months were super spiteful, she had my son and refused to let me see him, threatened me with her attorney, said I'm abusive, I just wanted my son back. So I got an attorney, we went to court... only to find out she didn't have an attorney, I felt horrible. I got full temporary custody because she refused to move back to the state. Now after this I keep the communication up with them, I took him to her, 11 hours away, where he stayed for a month, then brought him back to start 1st grade. I'm missing her at this point, being a single father all alone 11 hours from family and friends is very eye opening. I start accepting Christ. I have found a way to truly forgive, but I still miss her. She finally starts communicating with me a few months ago, but refuses to reconcile. This weekend she came down to visit. Slept on the couch...
Now for her visit...
She got here late Friday night, talked for a bit, went to sleep, refused to sleep in the bed. The next day we all hung out, had a great time. We put our son to bed, grabbed a bottle of wine. She apologized for talking about going out and partying to me, I told her earlier that day it upset me but as a calm conversation I told her this. So anyway, we drink the bottle, talk like we are dating again for 2 hours, holding hands, kissing, then sex. Tells me it doesn't mean we're getting back together, goes and sleeps on the couch. The next day was to the beach, some hand holding, one or two kisses, but a lot of pushing away at night when we were watching a movie. Next morning, son is at school, we have sex, she showers, comes out, as I'm leaving the room she grabs my arm and kisses me on the cheek. I ask "why?" She says "that is for the beach yesterday." A lot of hand holding this day, a lot of kissing, a lot of cuddling at night. Gets upset and pushes away once at night, then comes over ten minutes later to tell me, "you never kissed me like this when I was here", she starts to almost cry, stops herself, says she's going to bed, kiss good night. The next morning, she's leaving, no sex, no hand holding, no kissing, just, cold hearted. Hugs me passionately before getting in the car, kisses me good bye, says we can talk more. Texts me when she got home, saying she got home. I said "have a great nights rest". Next morning I text, "good morning, hope you had fun, we miss you, have a good day". No response. I text that night, "do you want to talk to our son tomorrow night?" Texts back, "that's fine". I ask, "are you ok?" She texts back, "yeah, just tired." I said "get some rest and ill text you in the morning ." No response. Now today, I send a good morning text, no response.
." No response. Now today, I send a good morning text, no response. 