This isn't exactly the way I thought my life would be going. Kind of feeling like my life is in a hiccup. I go from feeling fine to not. I go from focusing on my direction and then get caught up with my kids.
I so dread Mondays as I have now for quite some time. Still looking for that new job. Hoping I can get my bearings,feel better and stay that way and find that next stepping stone in my life.
Just venting those terrible Monday Blues.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
It is always a bummer (to put it lightly) when things are not going as you had planned, either in relationships, with children and or jobs (and yes sometimes in all three.) However, forgive my rose colored glasses, I'm an eternal optimist and I think sometimes you have to make lemonade out of the lemons you've been dealt until something better comes around - and almost always something better does eventually find it's way to you as long as you keep making the effort to find it and having the patience for it to arrive.
Sometimes Mondays are just the pits even when you're in a job you love. While I like the job I'm in and am thankful for it, I've been on the search for a new higher paying one for the last 4 months. I've submitted multiple applications with no luck so far, but I intend to keep submitting them and sooner or later something will come through.
I'm pulling for you that your situation has some big and positive changes coming sooner rather than later - I'm confident those changes will come for you!
Count me in on the sideline with BA as your cheerleader.
You've had a rough few months, Kat. It's no wonder you feel worn out. There's a lot of emotion in your house right now. I know I'd feel off kilter if I were in your shoes.
You do a great job keeping your balance throughout it all. I think that speaks volumes about you. I'll pray that you get some good vibes pronto!
Bets
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
I certainly can use all those cheers! I am crossing my fingers and praying and visualizing. It has to happen sometime.
S18 has yet to tell my parents. It is driving me crazy. Yet it is his to tell, not mine. I get the feeling that they think everything will be the same except there will be this little person too. Yikes!!
Ok, just trying to focus on my own issues. There are jobs that sound great but either don't pay enough or insist on certain experience in a field that I don't have. I am not giving up, just getting antsy.
Off to look at the classifieds.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Hugs my friend. You will find a way to pull it together. Try not to put too much pressure on yourself about it. I find that the more pressure I put the less likely I am to find solutions.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Deep breath! I broke down and called my Mom and Dad. I actually told my Dad which felt better rather than having my Mom do it. I felt such a huge weight getting that off my shoulders for now. I am still going to have S18 tell them because he should.
I certainly know where I get the realistic approach of things. They took it really well but I told them my thoughts and what I have said and they agreed with me. I really do appreciate them if they drive me batty at times.
I was just so stressed with them not knowing. I mean really at this rate it could be Thanksgiving or later by the time he told them. My mom said she could see why he hasn't been able to spit it out since I didn't tell them for a year about my ex's affair and having moved out. I said yes but they knew that if somehow we got back together and they knew he had an affair and so forth, that things wouldn't ever really be right with it. She admitted that.
Anyway, I can breathe.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I agree, good job! There comes a point where holding on to things is just plain harmful and waiting for you kid to do it...well, it's like waiting for them to do the dishes lol! Glad you feel better.
Now this puts a pickle in the mash! I just got offered a limited partenship with the company I work for. It isn't a lot but it means that I would own part of the company and make a smidge extra (no where near what I need right now). So I still need to find something extra...what to do, what to do...
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
However, forgive my rose colored glasses, I'm an eternal optimist and I think sometimes you have to make lemonade out of the lemons you've been dealt until something better comes around - and almost always something better does eventually find it's way to you as long as you keep making the effort to find it and having the patience for it to arrive.