This is truly a roller coaster ride through hell .Just when things look a little more positive another downer .Theres been so much helpful info on here im truly greatful for it . I wish i dint have to be here at all . But given the choice who would . Not that im not greatful for the support here .I find myself emotional early in the week and numb by the end of the week .
I try to conduct myslf as if nothing is wrong when around her even though its very difficult . The silenc e is deafening and the sarcastic remarks from her about everything I do say tells me she has either lost respect for me and or is trying to look at me in a bad light to justify her behavior. Which is totally absurd in many ways .
Me 45 W 45 Son 16 Son 14 Married 23 together 27 W threatened sep several times W still at home A discovered Mar 17 2014 A ended DEC 2 ( skeptical )
It gets better. Her behavior might not, but detaching, taking care of yourself and GAL-ing will help lessen the blows and in time her behavior will affect you less and less.
Resentment occurs when we aren't doing what we need to care for ourselves, though we expect others to do it for us.
Dawgy, Sorry to see you are in this situation. The silence IS deafening. I have used that phrase almost daily. More than likely she has lost respect for you. I know my W doesnt have much respect for me anymore. Shes an "always/never" type person and she has really swung that way recently. To her every interaction we have ever had was negative, and she cannot find one positive memory from our marriage. We sat in MC last week and I listed 20 positives and she refuted, dissagreed, or argued with every one. How can you compete with that? The WAW changes history in order to justify her actions and strengthen her resolve.
M42 W40 T17 M15 S13 S11 BD 7-14 A discovered 7-14 WAW moved out 10-3-14 D final 2-23-15
Hang in there Dawgy - I know tough weekends can set up tough weeks. It is truly a roller coaster that doesn't stop. Try to break that cycle and turn it all off. Do something for yourself and your kids. You can't control her and you know that.
Me-45 W-44 S21, S18, D15 T-27, M-21 BD Jan 2014 PA revealed March 2014 In-house separation - April 2015 I filed - Aug 2015 She moved out Oct 2015
Yep, it is such an "up and down" thing, I find. One minute I'm fine and looking ahead and the next I'm a sniffling mess.
I try to get it through my head that I just need to let the universe play out as its going to. I remind myself that "what's for me will not go by me" and that I truly, honestly believe that true love will find a way; I just have to sit on my hands and be patient while all the background work is being done.
There's no possible way a WAS isn't thinking about the one they left behind. It's just not possible. I need to give him something good to think about and become someone he'd be CRAZY to let go of!
BF:40 M:33 SD: 12 T: 8, never married, no kids together BD: 8/4, "I'm just done", "...too tired and burnt to try". PA confirmed 8/5 "It happened, but it's been over for almost a year".
Its an up day here in Dawgy land .not sure why really > I just feel whatever will be will be today . I wish I could maintain this train of thought . Ive just been hurt so dam much through all this I think my brain has gone into protection mode and is not allowing me to wallow any longer . I mean after awhile , how much stress and anxiety , sorrow , anger can one person process ? There must be a defense mechanism in the human brain that kicks in after enough damage is done . It s purely scientific thought . I dont know lol , i ll probably be down in the dumps again tomorrow lol
Me 45 W 45 Son 16 Son 14 Married 23 together 27 W threatened sep several times W still at home A discovered Mar 17 2014 A ended DEC 2 ( skeptical )
