I just don't know maybe I need to start getting my paper work for D together. My D's and W came over for dinner last night and it was nice and we all got along well together. But I have been having so much anxiety lately not knowing what is going to happen with all the financials.. in this marriage...do I fight for all of it or do I walk away from a lot of it just to keep the peace.
well I have not commented much on this site for a while...Just wanted to journal a little bit I guess....I am wondering lately if I should keep standing...I want W to file if she is going to....but I wish I could move on with my life soon...and meet someone else...I am very envious of people who have put their marriages first and of great importance...Are there still people out there that do that...I hope so...
I was in the same place as you and started pushing XW to proceed with the D. It got to the point where I insisted that she get the decree to me, and she finally did. I think if I hadn't pushed for it the M would still be in limbo, but I kept prodding right up to getting the court date assigned. I can honestly tell you that getting D'd has been liberating, I felt pretty detached before but I feel FREE now! I am so glad it's over, and so glad I don't have to worry about another shoe dropping (W has always had CC debt problems). A lot of people around here make D sound like a death sentence, but it can be a really positive experience! Probably not the best thing to say on a DB'ing forum, LOL! But I think people should know that if they end up with a D despite their best DB'ing efforts, that is not necessarily a bad thing. And it's not necessarily the end either, a lot of couples reconcile even after D. Who knows what the future holds. But I'm living my life in the here and now and loving it
Thanks AS sometimes you can float around here in DB land without many comments but the people here understand what we are going through better than anybody. My friends and family are pushing me to go ahead and get D done....my Girls see it as a death sentance and don't want it...I think W is going to file on me so I am going to sit and wait for that....she has always been very afraid to take responsibility for anything...But if by the end of the summer I think I will file....I can't wait forever and....man it would be great to have something to look forward to like finding another Woman and having a real relationship....it has been sooooo long....
well kind of a down week for I wrote to an old girlfriend last week and noticed online that she is married with a young child..All this made me feel lonely and like time is running out etc...I also spent way too much time looking at doomer blogs about how our society is going to collapse...I get my girls back this week and am looking forward to it...
