Forgiveness really is a daily process!! I also agree with Ruby on how anger can actually serve a positive function in our lives. So when you're feeling angry, you don't have to ignore it, but turn it into something helpful for you.
Ruby! Beer and popcorn! What a good idea. I'm right there with at the amusement park with you, RT! Beer and popcorn for us all!
Let me translate all that stuff she's desperately trying to convey to you. "Blah, blah, blah... You're still available to be my plan B, right?" Have some duct tape on hand for when you get the urge to reply.
lol!!!! SD just luv u! I'm good. I have been NC for a few days. Not stressing it. She's stalking me on FB though. I could post anything... "I hate kittens!"...and she would "LIKE" it. I guess it's her way of keeping in touch.
Ruby my gem, I'm on my way to read about your NG date!
mrCAS, I AM A GAMECOCK FAN!!! And live in Carolina! Your observation of The 'Cock's one-liners is not shocking to me at all! LOL!
All is well. My Financial Aid came through. My class registration at the university is done and I ordered my textbooks. Class starts next Wed! Yabba Dabba Doo!!!
Hello's complete and now... JOURNAL:
Hormones... Totally. And can I just say... Guys, skip to the next paragraph... How come I have to be on a 21 day cycle? Why didn't I get a vote in that? My life looks like this: PMS Week, Cycle Week, Apology Week, PMS Week, Cycle Week, Apology Week, and so on... or in hormonal terms: I will KILL you, I need to SLEEP, I said WHAT?, KILL, SLEEP, I said WHAT?
I get some brain smacks now and then. I rolled over in bed last night and thought... hmmm... W is so miserable with AP but she's spooning her right now? Ah huh... Hit myself with my own 2x4. Just little stuff like that lately running through my brain. It's counter-balancing the Tinkerbell, La-La-Land Fairy that's plucking daisy leaves in my thoughts(she loves me, she loves me not).
I just keep pushing all of those thoughts aside right now. I tell myself it's because I'm so busy I don't have time for my own crazy at the moment but as I am typing this Tinkerbell keeps chirping something about "she said two more weeks!"
I'll be right back... I gotta go get a 2x4.
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
Going back to school.................I am so happy for you!!!
Its like the ultimate GAL; all new people, time consuming, betters you.........and you get graded.
I have no comment on your cycle
What are we doing for head clearing, heart pumping exercise?
Missed you,
ME 38 W 37 T18 M5 D3 BD 1/7/13 PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing 2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13 W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13 First mediation appt 12/19/13
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
It's hearing the "We's" that hurts so much. We had to speak briefly on a financial issue. She called me first at 11am today and I was busy and couldn't talk but she had torn loose of the AP and managed to tell me she missed me and started to cry.
Then came the call I just got. The 3:30 call that I had arranged to take care of the business issue. This time AP was there so W was jovial and acting completely oppostite again. She thanked me for the tuff I was taking care of. We ended with light hearted chatter about the holiday weekend. She's going to the AP's brother's lake house again. She said "We".
"We" used to mean me. This wave of emotion comes with tears.
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
And live in Carolina! Your observation of The 'Cock's one-liners is not shocking to me at all! LOL!