I made a mistake

[forlovessake]

Soooo H and I are just starting custody arrangements for D. He is supposed to have her every other weekend, with this coming one being his first. He's barely seen her in the 6 weeks since he left, and never over night. Since he's having her this weekend, his next would of course be the weekend of the 9th, which is our wedding anniversary. He told me he can't have her though as he's planning to go out of town for a friend's bachelor party. Ok, cool, guess I'll take her. I suggested switching weekends where he has her two in a row then I have her two in a row to make up for it, as I have a wedding the weekend before. He can't because he's going to a wedding that weekend as well. With the woman he went to a wedding with back in May, and with whom he's having an EA. I lost it. I yelled and told him I was disgusted in him. Not just for this, but for how little he's seen his daughter, how selfish he is, and how he missed his own grandfather's funeral this past saturday in lieu of work and friends. Of course he was angry, told me why this is why he didn't want to be with me, wants nothing to do with me, how it's fine for him to go out with her as he is filing for divorce. I'm at myself, I'm mad at him, I'm just...mad.