To sum it up we have been through alot, from W's affair as the third women, to cruising the internet/FB/Craigslist for single meet ups for sex for the hypo mania desires. The affair is done / over and no indications that W is looking for those one stand meet ups. W is taking meds religiously. Good things...
W has also been seeing a therapists for about a year now. That seems to be working. In fact therapists said that she would like to meet me about 2 months ago. W had reservations but now seemed to have to come grips with it and we have our first appointment next week.
I've express my feelings to W about our intimate/romantic/sexual relationship, but it seems to fall on deaf ears and not be a big deal to her. W says she loves me. She also says that it is because we are older that sex isn't that romantic or intimate anymore. That it can't be the same like it was in our early years of being together. I told her that I disagree.
So it is still very frustrating these days. W seems more interested in everything else, tv, ipad, ipohone, with facebook, drawsomething, words with friend, etc... except me. When we do have those moments, It feels like it is her duty, very sterile. No emotion what so every. There is hardly any intimacy, or even hugs and kisses. All that I would like is for W to emotionally/romantically/intimately engage. Is that to much to ask for?
Also W has been chatting with a guy over in England via the chat in word with Friends. Started on FB and now has moved to Words with Friends Chat. She says it is very innocent. But given her past history with cruising the internet looking for that excitement or hypo manic situations that Bi Polars have, I am figuring not so much. I even asked if there where any sexual innuendo conversation. She didn't deny it, just said that he is in Frickin England.
But I know differently. She had left her FB account up one day and I accidentally found some very juicy conversation. So I know she is not being honest with me. Another Trait of a Bipolar.
Not sure how to deal with the chatting piece. Is it to much to ask that whatever she is talking/chatting to the opposite sex about that she includes me in on. Where is that fine line of trust start and stop in internet situations? To me if she can't tell me what they are talking about, is almost on the fine line of having an emotional affair via the internet. Am I out of line?
Like to hear another perspective on the intimacy/romantic/sexual and internet/chat areas.
