H's MLC started when BF murdered

[GatorGirl]

Nothing really new with H. Status quo. Waiting for him to start mentioning documentation about D. We'll see how long it takes.

Went out to a party on Friday night and had a really good time. Was out for hours and finally came home at 3 am. Truthfully, the best part was that I was able to completely and totally forget about all of this for a while. It feels like the first time I've really been able to NOT think about it at all for a somewhat extended period of time. It's so strange going out. I took off my wedding rings last month and now I suddenly notice men checking out "that" finger. Interesting and almost a little creepy. I suppose I'd better get used to it.

[Raine]

Hey GG, just checking in on you. I hope you're doing really well. I'm glad that you are GAL!

[GatorGirl]

I'm here...lurking more than anything. Been reading your posts at work; very hard to comment there. The network screws up the reply box something awful.

Been moving on, really. Doing some traveling for work in a week or so and plan on spending my time in flight working on D paperwork. Sorry to say I'm done. Ready to move on. If we work it out down the road, fine. I just don't see that as an option at this point. Starting to warm up to the idea of dating. Not quite as scary as it has been in the past. I feel like a Phoenix rising from the ashes of who and what I used to be. The rebirth is good. New job, I'm running again finally for the first time in years. Finding new friends.

Thanks for checking in, Hopper. <3

Peace, GG

[Raine]

GG I wish I was in your place, in a place to move on to something, anything. I feel like I'm creating my own limbo land right now. I don't feel married. I don't feel single. I guess I feel pregnant! As time goes on and things just get worse and worse, and the piles of negatives, pain, and betrayals continue to build, the thought of moving on, alone, or eventually with someone else seems far easier than overcoming all of this. It makes me kind of understand where H may have been in August. That everything was so bad in his mind, it's easier to run and start over. The only difference is no one would blame me for doing so. I think people are more surprised that I haven't already.

I am super happy for you! I think this experience has only made you stronger and you're in a much better place to move on now. I hope you date some amazing guys and have your pick of the bunch

[GatorGirl]

I fear my attitude is merely some sort of self defense. I can't wait around for him. For me, standing is a one-way ticket to unhappiness. Not that I need someone but I just can't bear to be treated this way.

I'm so sorry you are in such limbo. Our situations are so different. And despite all the shenanigans of your H, I think you have a better shot at pulling through than I do. Mine is completely gone. Hasn't wanted to spend a moment alone with me at all since he moved out.

Know that I think of you often...

Peace,
GG