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My D is sitting on the couch trying to write a paper for school. She hasn't been able to write anything in over an hour. The tears are rolling down her face. She said her Dad ruined her life.
Other D daughter called last night crying. She has the last conversation with her Dad replaying in a loop in her head. It was an argument.
I barely made it to my car after work. I cried all the way home.
He has completely pushed us out of his life. He never calls. I don't know how I'm supposed to save my marriage when he doesn't live with us or talk to me.
Somedays I just want to give up. It still would hurt just as much.
You have to get yourself stronger. You have to become the rock that your H isn't. It [censored] but that's the reality. Use your girls as the anchor and get strength from them. Protect them.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
I know I have to be the rock. Because of their ages, they want to take care of meat times too. It's hard to see your kids in that light. I try to not make them worry, especially about me. They have watched me lose nearly 40 pounds in four months. My YD who lives with me, tries to "fatten" me up somedays.
There is nothing easy about any of this. It's so hard to see your children in so much pain.
When you go completely dark, how long do you continue? I haven't got anything from H. So, Ds and I just try and go on with our lives. With the holidays coming, it's hard to know he won't be home with us. I don't know what H is going to do with our R. He doesn't seem to be moving forward with anything. He asked me in an email last week if I was going to serve him with papers. Never.
I told my parents yesterday the whole story. It was so hard. I hate what this is doing to everyone. I get so mad at my H for making our lives like this, hurting the people we love. I wish at times I could just cut off the feelings like H did. I wish I didn't love him so much, then it wouldn't be so painful.
Going dark has not been so much different from before. He never came home. He never calls. Only emails about money and "this process". I never answered his last email. I did text him yesterday to give him a couple specific days and times he could come to the house and pick up some of his things. Winter clothes or boots. I didn't hear back from him. He could be out of the country still.
No contact otherwise. My parents have decided to come and spend Thanksgiving with me and girls. I hope I don't cry the whole time. My birthday is right after, I'd rather skip it this year.
You can't go completely dark on your h because you have the children and will need to discuss things w/him concerning them. NC is the best way for you to go right now and I would stay that way until he started acting like a civilized person once again.
You are managing well and I know it's tough around this time of year with the holidays, but you and the girls will get through it. How? By starting some new traditions to help change the pace a bit.
I think it's nice that your parents are going to come and spend the Thanksgiving w/you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
