I'm still here-again

[In_Shock]

yes, like E said, I'm also NOT convinced he's 'done' --- the absolute negatives.... I have been thinking about you. I know you are growing SO much.

We all ask ourselves "why the hell do we want ....back??" Some of us come to realize that we really don't eventually. But you are such a good person -- you will endure whatever is thrown at you. Keep posting. I'll keep checking in on you and ROOTING hard for you!!! ((((((((hugs))))))))

[paige40]

((((HUGS)))) DG

You do deserve so much better. Keep that in mind and when you are feeling low read that post again. We are all in your corner.

[~¤DG¤~]

Thanks for the support.

I mean it. I'm done. He has shown me who he is now, and I don't like it one bit.

I know in my heart that I did absolutely everything I could to save my M, and I am proud of myself. When it came down to it, I didn't quit, I didn't run, I worked very hard to improve myself for myself and my family. I don't regret one decision I've made through this whole process.

His loss.

[paige40]

The lawyer I saw told me that when someone is trying to tell you who they are you should listen. I guess we both need to listen huh?

It is his loss!!

[any chance?]

DG:
You are very correct in recognizing that you are someone special, and that it is your H's huge loss to lose you. He does not even know it. Too bad for him. This recognition is good to you to be sure.

This process is like a rollercoaster. What seems right today will seem wrong tomorrow. Decisions made today are questioned tomorrow. What seems set in stone today is not so certain tomorrow. At least this is case in my sitch. Be prepared, and just keep making steps forward each day. The dust will settle as time goes by. At least that is my hope!

Hang in there and be strong.

[Autumn Leaves]

Hang in there DG.

[km2ct]

DG I just want to let you know I've read your whole story and my heart breaks for you. It's hard to realize the man you love and want to love you is just not worth it. I'm getting there, too! Take care of yourself.

[gunny]

Hello DG,
I am sorry to hear of your loss. My prayers and thoughts are with you!
Gunny

[jbnati]

Hello DG, one day your H is going to wake up and realize what a wonderful woman he'd left. I've said it many times before, and I'll say it again. You have made an amazing amount of progress here. I just wish your H had progessed half as much, but it seems like unfortunately, he's gone the other direction.

Hang in there. Sending hugs ((())) and prayers your way!!

[~¤DG¤~]

Journaling---

Today I had an appt with my therapist and it went very well. Last week's session I spent the majority of it in tears, but not this week.
When I told her that I love H and probably will for a long time but finally love myself more; she said "YES!" And got choked up. She said that was such a profound statement and she is so happy that I have come to that realization.

I'm proud of myself.