I thought I would post this....from a good friend

[verysad2day]

Until the rope is finally dropped and one has honestly GAL...it is just a "shell game"

Makes soooooo much sense. Hope it helps someone.

[workinghardguy]

Amen... I know that while I'd like to think I've "dropped the rope" I haven't. I'm trying but it's damn hard. I still me setting up GAL as a dog and pony show for the W.

With that said... I get into the GAL and find myself enjoying it a lot. I tend to not think of my W or R issues at all, or only fleetingly which is a huge relief. But still... I know right now it's still partly the dog and pony show thing.

This morning I got to my volunteer gig and changed the schedule for the end of the month meeting. Made it an afternoon thing where we learn search and rescue skills, with the youth having a dinner chaperoned by me and some other adults and then we'd end the night with a visit to a local haunted house so the youth have some fun/bonding time. It certainly is a great idea and the kids will love it... but part of me was thinking, "yeah W... well, take this event and figure out how you're going to deal with going out that night... ha, too bad I won't be around".

I know... not the right frame of mind, but it is what it is right now... work in progress I guess.