I know how you feel, JS. I'm about to cross that bridge too, but I think mine is blown apart, and I'm going to have to cross a raging river alone. For me, there will be no going back. I have stood for 7 years, and I can no longer do it.
"Will we heal? Will we grow back together?"
I so hope so, especially if you had a good M. I earnestly pray for those on this board for healing in their M's.
"WAS probably sent many signals for us to read and interpret"
I'm sure that is true, but we LBSers are not mind readers. And, I for one, have given my signals of need in heaps, that was ignored. I'm sure you have too. I did not leave and pursue someone else.
Well, there is a real storm outside tonight ... raining by the buckets full. I am also alone, but my online course has started, so I have things to keep me busy. Yay!
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
I was asked not to post to facebook this news, so it is posted here. I am a Grandparent. For those that do not remember this is my first Grandchild.
The little girl, was brought into this world in the wee hours of January 8, 2012. Weighing 7lbs, 7ozs at 20 inches in length. Mother and child are resting comfortably, her father is attempting to get a little sleep himself.
I thought I’d share a little good news.
@JB: It is how we act that matters and not just for ourselves. We need to be ourselves and having found short comings strive to improve. We need to act with honor and courage for we do not act in a vacuum. Our lives touch so many others and we exert influence sometimes imperceptibly.
My first court date is Friday and while I have no real hope of busting this D I will not quit on myself. I will continue to act within my sense of honor. I will continue to be myself.
@Sunshine: Thank you, I was still dealing with some of the drama laid upon the kids. I no longer act upon it, but the angst created needed to be vented and placed in perspective.
@Val: Thank You! Not bad for an old grunt eh?
@Beingme: You have considerably more patience and fortitude than I. I believe we had a good marriage. It was certainly appeared to be better than the marriages of many people we knew. Time will tell if we will heal back together, or continue upon separate paths.
In 6 to 7 months she’ll have the document she seeks. Perhaps then she’ll stop running and begin to examine introspectively.
Journaling: The news above has lifted my spirits. I am very glad they are all safe, healthy, and resting comfortably. A very, very small part of me was hoping she would be born next Saturday.
Saturday I attended a local RV show and looked for my next RV. It will be several years before I will be able to afford another one, so this was just a look and see. Out of the hundreds of vehicles I found four that could work, one of which I really like. Perhaps in a few years I find the same model in a gently used condition.
I think it is important we look forward and make plans for the future and that is what this show was for me.
Sunday I took the dog for a walk in the park and a trip to the pet store. He has a spa day scheduled for the end of the month.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill
Congratulations, Grandpa! I love being a grandma ... it's the most "awesomest" thing ever. My one grand-daughter thinks that all her toys were bought by me, no matter how much her mother tries to tell her otherwise. So, that tells me that with all her fun things, she thinks of me. I love it.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa
Looks like you have someone new to pour your love into and show your wise ways.
Plans for the future is necessary. In the latest book I read "Gratitude", goal setting (both long and short) is one of the best things we can do to keep on track with positive thinking and positive change.
In our sitches.. we could all use as much positivity as possible.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
Good luck with your court date. Just remember that just because you will be signing on a piece of paper, does not mean anything. You are becoming a better and stronger person and nobody can take 'that' away from you.
Look forward to all the little things in life that make you happy.
BITS M 38 W 36 D 7 Married 15 yrs W left for 6 months in 2009 W Filed for D 01/03/11 piecing now...
