Today is a new day

[jbnati]

You did well, DG. Glad you had a good time and you were able to GAL tonight.

[~¤DG¤~]

Thanks jb- I find that some days are much better than others.

[lovehurts2]

DG,

I read your making very good process in GAL. well done.

P.s good luck for the surgery its only a matter of days isn't it?

[Sleepy]

"I never realized how badly he is hurting in all of this. I have been so focused on my pain and what this S is doing to me, that I didn't even think about how hard this must be on him.
I also thought that by now he should know if he wants to try to repair the M or not, but after listening to him I realize I have no right to place any expectations on him."

Nice, thoughts. My pastor always says "Lower your expectations and raise your commitments" so true.

It sounds like you guys have a fighting chance. Keep working on yourself and stay strong. Let him come to his senses. The grass isn't greener and I hope he finds this out sooner rather than later.

[~¤DG¤~]

Thanks Sleepy. I hope we do.

Love hurts-yep, my surgery is on Tuesday. I'm ready to get this over with.

[~¤DG¤~]

Journaling-----

I am having a bad day. We are having severe weather and I am deathly afraid of severe weather, especially tornadoes. I'm sitting here trying my best not to freak out. It sounds like the heavier storms are south of us, but it doesn't do anything for my anxiety when the sirens go off.

It's times like this that make me angry that H is gone. He knows how badly I hate storms and I hate being home alone..

I'm getting that hopeless feeling again, that we'll never work through this, and we will end up divorcing.
I know this all is because I'm feeling frightened and anxious and it will pass, I just need to get my feelings down..

[2stepboogie]

After every storm comes the sun light.

Anger is as much a legitimate emotion as is love.

One heals

One doesn't.

DG the storms will pass just be calm and peaceful and know that NOTHING last forever.

[any chance?]

DG:
Just like the storm outside your door, the dark feelings you have right now will pass. Hang in there,and be strong. You have to have faith in yourself and have confidence that the things you are working so hard for are going to work out. Be tough....the storm will pass.

AC

[~¤DG¤~]

I know they will, I just have my moments.
I'm grateful they are just moments and not constant.
I've come too far to give up on myself.

H told me he wasn't able to get off of work for my surgery on tuesday.
I'm really hurt & upset by that, but I didn't let him know that. What would be the point? He has known for months when it was, he could have done something about it sooner, but he didn't. It doesn't make me feel very good inside. I had a glimmer of hope that he would be there for me, and now that hope is gone.

I know we're separated, but I'm still his wife. He says he still loves me.

Actions speak louder than words.

[any chance?]

Sorry to hear H can't be there for your surgery. But don't give up hope. Be consistent and confident, and don't let a downer afternoon cast everything in negativity. This too shall pass.