I am still doing ok today. I kept very busy yesterday. I began a new project in the house, one that I will have to learn on the way: How to Tile a Floor.
I think that helped me out a lot. Its is something new, something that I needed to get done, It will make my house look better, and It will keep my busy.
After I got done, I called my neighbor to see if he and his W wanted to go to the beach and go fishing tomorrow, which they do. This was also a first for me. I had never spoken to him on the phone before, and I was hesitant to call him. But I figured I would try something different here too. And then they invited me to come over, and we hung out, drank a couple of beers and ate. So, It was a good night, and out of the ordinary for me.
Today, I got up and went to the gym. Had a good workout and feel good. I am going to keep working out like I used to bf the bomb. Quiting the gym hasn't done me any good, and I am running so much these days I am losing the little bit of extra weight that I have always had a problem with, which means I feel better about myself.
I say all of this, bc it seems the more positive things I am doing for myself, the better I feel. There is a little voice in the back of my head reminding me about my W and my sitch, but I am not paying it that much attention right now.
If this is detaching, I need to keep it up!!
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M:34 W:28 SD:9 D:6 (pr) M:3 T:6 Separated 1/16/11 ILYBNILWY 10/25/10 PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10
I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...
I stayed busy all day again, then went on a 7 mile run tonight. To be honest though, part of my motivation to run is that I know my W can see how much I run, and also that I am doing things, not just sitting around missing her.
But at the end of the day, I am running for me and nobody else.
W tm me tonight, and wanted to know if I am still playing words with friends with her ( on the iPhone ). I told her I was, but I have been really busy. She replied, ok.
The other day she started 2 different games with me. Bf I could not even get her to play with me. The first day I played one word with her, but I have not played since.
Do I want to play with her, yes.
Do I think it is a good idea, no.
Will I play with her, occasionally.
I feel like she has got to be thinking about me this week. With all of the contact from her, and now she is concerned about a silly game???
I wanted to respond that were really not friends right now, so I don't feel comfortable playing it with you. But of course, I wouldn't say that.
Any way, while I was on my run, I was running past our house and a song was plaing that reminded me of my sitch, and I started to tear up for a minute bi focused on my run, and felt alot better.
Well, that's it. A long post about nothing really important.
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M:34 W:28 SD:9 D:6 (pr) M:3 T:6 Separated 1/16/11 ILYBNILWY 10/25/10 PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10
I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...
I am afraid to stop being busy to tell you the truth, but I have plenty to do to keep me busy for months.
As far as running, I couldn't always rum 7 miles. I remember when it was hard to run even 1. You just do what you can do and try to increase it slowly. I think running probably makes me feel better than anything else
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M:34 W:28 SD:9 D:6 (pr) M:3 T:6 Separated 1/16/11 ILYBNILWY 10/25/10 PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10
I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...
I try to keep busy also, because the busier I am, the less time I have to think. Although I'm just chilling tonight, I had a busy day and I'm exhausted.
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