I did an OK job of GAL'ing today. I did get out and bike 18 miles. I think this running I've started doing made it feel a little bit easier than it's felt the last few years. No golf today. I just came home and vaccuumed the house and caught up on laundry. Not really exciting, but it felt good to get those things done. Showered up. Put on some clothes and took myself to Chipotle. So when I got home, my W had been there about 15 minutes. Being cleaned up and gone when she got home had the side effect of adding a little mystery, besides just feeling good. My W is now moving out again this weekend. We actually had a decent convo when she got home. She said she still wants a D, but I think she could use the space for now and it seems like she has the L out of her head somewhat. We'll see which way the wind is blowing tomorrow.
Yea, when the WAW moves out, it is almost unbearable. My W did it slowly one step at a time. She spent a few nights here at the house, then a couple nights away, then simply said she wasn't coming home that night and it pretty much became permanent. I think handling it all at once would be much better than then holding on to the hope that it will only be a couple nights. Kind of like ripping a Bandaid off quickly. Either way, my guess is that it will be incredibly painful. Jbnati, you have my sympathies. I'm sure you are strong enough to handle it.
Well, regardless of when the actual day is, I know how tough it is. Today, tomorrow, next week, it is he!! Just standing by. I blew it big time, cried begged Pleaded, and I know without a doubt my W moved out sooner bc of that. Be stronger than I was.
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Yep, it's looming. You are absolutely correct. It is tough. Perhaps I'm partially in denial right now. Or it's the lesser of two evils right now. Moving out or a D. It seems like moving out is slowing the D thoughts, hopefully enough.
Ran 3 mi. this morning in the rain. Too wet to get on the bike. No softball game tonight. However, I have a plan B - I am going to meet up with someone for dinner from my church. This guy had a WAW back in the 80s, they filed for divorce, and were separated twice. But they're still married today.
I am also picking up a TV stand for my W from Pier 1 on the way. She asked to borrow the car I'm driving or asked if I could pick it up. I opted to pick it up. I don't know why I am so possessive about the car I'm driving right now. I am driving the 2007 Pilot and she's driving the 2001 Accord right now. I am driving the car with the payments. I took it to NC back in late March and have been driving it ever since. It had been her car. I teased her about not wanted to drive the car with the front end bashed in (she had a minor fender bender last week) and that kind of made her a little mad.
So I walk in the door tonight, and my W is reading a manual for this DIY divorce kit she picked up. For some I started laughing. She asked me what was so funny. I said something about the evil book she was reading. She asked me if I'm I'm ever going to let her have a D. I told her flat out I don't want one but I'm not going to stop you.
Is this bad? Geez, if only she read any marriage books with this much zeal!!
Thanks. I just couldn't help myself. She just got the kit so we could work some things amongst ourselves before she went to talk to the L again. She's been a little nervous ever since I told her I am going to have another L look over any paperwork before we finalize it. It stinks, but I gotta do it!
