WAW gave ILYBNILWY two weeks before XMas. Said she wanted a legal sep. My DIHL response was why not just get a D. She said can we wait til after the Holidays! (How sweet) She asked me in Oct. that she needed me to show her how much I loved her, but at the time I couldn't (wasn't sure what I wanted) She moved to her parents the next day ( 1hour away). Wrote her a the love letter a week later and she said she was lost and needed space. A week later said she still wanted the divorce. I waited a week, called her and said we have something to special to just walk away from. Her reply was "yes we have a very special friendship". She is very stubborn and quick tempered (complete opp. of me) so rather than try anymore to convince her this was wrong I said than you might as well do it ASAP. She works for a D attorney and even though I agreed to file she deals w/ this stuff daily so I think she has become numb to the whole problem of couples just giving up. Three weeks ago she filed and our court date is already set for May 18. Things are going way to fast for me. There was a time a couple years ago when she was gonna have a surgery and I was to be out of town so I asked if her mom could fill my shoes. She agreed with no hesitation. Her family is VERY close so I felt she'd be in good hands. Later I found that broke her heart. She says she has forgiven me but cannot forget. We have to go our seperate ways she says. She has a long history of letting close friends go over very small details. I mean no contact with them ever agian. For the most part her only real friends were me and her immediate family. I bought DR, it will be here on Wed. Even before I found this site I've been doing the in the dark. The only time we communicate is through text about financial stuff and she comes back once a week to see our kid (the dog) . Our conversations are short but pleasant. I always keep myself busy while she's here. This is a " dont know what ya got til its gone" song. (for me) I do love this girl w/my whole heart. Time is running out. Not sure whether there is something to fight for or not! I have hope but I think maybe I should put more energy into moving on. Your thoughts and experiences would be greatly appeciated.
