tonight

[FellOnBlackDays]

Grr, I think you did fine. The team is right, be accommodating and friendly. Heck, I crawled into the attic to get down boxes for my W to move. I helped her pack them and put them in her car. I know she came here waiting to get in an argument, but all she got was a good friend there to help her. Sure, she took advantage of me in a way. But what she didn't get was the jack*ss she was expecting. Always do whatever you can to mess up their neat little walk away plan. Being nice is your greatest weapon!!!

BITS never walk alone!!

FOBD

[wanda15]

grr, just checking in on you. how are you doing?

[grr]

hi wanda
thanks for checking
i have not really felt like writing anything about me lately

no new progress or new anything

there were a few times in the past week, where i might have felt we were making babysteps or that were tiny victories, but after a day of playing said sitch in my head, i know i am just searching for things

we are still in our house out west
when we arrived here (separate flights, a day apart) he had told me he was not sleeping here

well, we have been here for 10 nights and he spent half of them here

2 nights ago, i thought i had a major breakthrough, when after hanging out in our yard together, he told me that he didn't care where he slept that night, that it didn't matter to him (as in rooms in the same home)

i pretended not to hear him so he would repeat the sentence

when he said it the exact same way, i thought that it might be an invite
as if he were reaching out a little to say he wouldn't mind sleeping in the same bed
crazy - huh?
you try to find hidden meaning in nothing

then today at the zoo he said, "we look like the blue hoodie family"
as we all had them on

i of course read way too much into that

and then of tonight, our last night here, he said goodnight and went into the other room and closed the door

so there you go...nothing to report

although, and i guess this is of some significance, i was feeling so strong and like i could move on this week

and now i feel, blah, again.
like i do want this to work and i'm sad it's not going to

and since this is a bit of an emotional rollercoaster, i truly may feel better tomorrow

wanda, i hope you are ok

i know you are on the same ride

[wanda15]

Hey grr, I totally know that feeling. trying to read what the H is really saying or doing. That is something that has to stop. We will go CRAZY if we continue down that road. Learning to take what has been said or done by H for face value seems to be a very hard lesson.

Time for us to get off this ride and try a new one. Hope you are doing okay today.

[FellOnBlackDays]

grr, good to hear from you, girl!! Hey, everyone is right. Stop the mindreading and stop worrying about the pace. You are doing fine. When he drops little comments like the one about the sleeping arrangements, he is probing. Just make sure to focus on putting the best answer forward when these probes come. Things should start to flow a bit easier from there.

I am pulling for you! Stay focused and stay on track!!!

BITS never walk alone!!!

FOBD

[ironMan]

Hi Grr,
Hang in there. This is exactly the roller coaster you speak of .. the one we're all on. As somebody else said "I'll hold your hand and we can scream together".

I have done an OK job of detaching, but events like you describe still get me every time. But, I think this is the ride to expect for now. I wouldn't hope for a quick resolution to things like this .... just keep taking care of you!!

[wanda15]

Thinking about you today. Hope your day is going okay!

[sparks14]

Hey grr. Pulling for you. You are doind a great job. Stay patient. Things will get brighter.

[grr]

thanks sparks
i sure hope so
how are you?

[♪CS♪]

Hey grr. I just reread your post on analyzing everything too much, feelings of progress, then feeling down again. You are NOT alone! Man, this is how I feel half of the time. I know I analyze way too much. I read into things too much. It really is a problem. All this does is keep us off kilter. It creates these up and downs. We both need to work on this. Take things for what they are and nothing more. I will try as well!