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[NorthernRoots]

I am stuck in a onesided marriage and I am soooo ready to end it.
I have a spouse who does things behind my back that are totally against my own beliefs and has no quams about it and doesnt see anything wrong because no matter what I say or do I am always wrong in her eyes.

She goes to the corner bar on weekends with her girlfriends and then I find messages pop-up on her facebook, i found out by accident because one night she left hers open, I thought it was mine because I never logout and accidently found messages to her from other men at the bar. Yes,she spent New Years eve there again this year (7 years in a row), she must think I am real stupid but I know whats going on.

Also, she goes over to friends houses that I know smoke pot and drink, she tries to hide it but its not hard to figure out.

She also goes either outside or in the bedroom when she gets "certain" calls , again, its not hard to figure out.

What got to me tonight is that our sons 11th birthday is tomorrow and when I got home from work and after I picked our son up from school she was at a neighbors smoking and drinking, she msg'd me on my cell and said she would be home shortly because she was at a neighbors "talking", again, I am not stupid to figure out why she was so giddy. When she got home she treated our son like she was the perfect mother, however has NO plans on his birthday tomorrow.

She just got her Bachelors in Physc in Dec and is trying to look for work in that field but does not drive which makes it hard to do.

Everytime I try to talk to her about anything I have to choose every little word carefully so I dont "accidently" start an argument because no matter what we talk about I will be wrong with what I say.

I am the only one who steps up to the plate with our household and sons upbringing because she cant or wont.

Honestly, I just am so close to putting my son in the car and head back home up north w/o question, actually I have felt this way for 4-5 years now.

I need input and advice.

[MrBond]

Has she always been like this? I notice in your signature line, you mention that you reonciled 6 years ago, why did you break up then?

[wanda15]

Have you read the DR yet? There are lots of really helpful vets on this forum that can give some great advice. read other stories and keep writing here. It helps a lot!!!

Lots of hugs to you!!!