Hello... I made a previous post about my sitch and it was never posted. Not sure why? All I know is that I am at my wits end. I did all the no-no's when my W left. Pleaded, pursued, sent email after email-blah blah blah.
I got DR and wish I got this book when we first S in June. Too late for that now though. We S in June, dated somewhat until Sept, officially S in Sept with just emails as contact.
There was no contact at all on Thanksgiving. It did hurt my feelings. I am not even sure what to do about Christmas? I'm really not. I thought about sending her a pic of the dog we both got as a puppy. But, I think she will view that as pursuing.
I know that she is having an EA with her EH at the least. That hurts too. I am really messed up over this Sitch. One day I think D is the answer to make my pain ease, the next day I think it will just make it worse.
All I know is that I feel like crap. I am trying to GAL but it isn't easy. I am dreading the holidays. Her last email to me she said "I miss you, I miss you everyday. Nothing is fun, and I don't look forward to anything" I wonder why she wouldn't want to see me if that is how she feels? I am so confused.
I have to admit I have obsessed over this Sitch, and I know I have to go dark. It feels unatural..but I know I have to do it. I have been through alot of physical pain but that is nothing to the pain of a broken heart. ...Thanks for reading/listening.
