"I still hurt & I still cry, but I am not going to let h see this at all..."
April I still grieve too. My coach told me the way to hamdle is to just set aside the time. When you're by yourself, privately let it out. Give yourself that time, vent it out of your system, and then move on. Do it every day if you have to. Anger and grief are perfectly normal for what we are going through. But when you're done, leave it behind and enjoy the rest of your day.
Me 53 XW 50 M 18 Years +2 S14 D19 Bomb 10-24-10 Served 1-27-11 Mediate 4-21-11 Civil D Final 6-2-11 No church anullment "A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."
Thank you again InAPickle & dbmod ~~ I am going to the library to find some books & read, read, read this weekend!!! H called a bit ago & said there was no rush to pick up my dog today -- I told him I would be there later this afternoon to pick her up -- he asked if I was going to stay in town (our home)or make the drive back to the city. I said I was going to drive back up here after picking her (Pepper) up -- he then told me that I could stay there tonight so I didn't have to make the drive & I said No I am picking her up & driving back tonight; he said that he was worried I would fall asleep or have an accident & I told him I would be fine (although it is raining & it will be dark by the time I start back)... I told him I had to get off the phone -- he got quite & then said "I love you"; I said I love you too & hung up!! Not 5 minutes later he called asking if I could pick up the other dog's thyroid medicine -- I said Yes I will do that -- he said that he & Sable (dog) appreciated it very much. Again, I said I had to get off the phone & to have a good day, said bye & hung up... It was hard to turn down the invite to stay for the night & it was hard to not keep talking to him on the phone but I did the right thing, right?1?!
Yes, in my opinion you did the right thing. Now monitor the results and at the same time, do something nice for yourself and focus on making you the best person you can be
M39 W41 Two children WAW bomb dropped 11/7/09 Piecing Aug 10 - Nov 10 No longer piecing...Nov 10 Separation Jan 11 EA ends again Feb 11 Piecing attempt #2, Mar 11
Thank you gutwrenching... I am going to start keeping a journal of our conversations, etc so I can look back at it when I feel like I need to 're-focus' -- I don't know where we are heading, but there was no nastiness in his voice today & he made the first move by saying the 'L' words this time... I stayed strong & feel much better today than the last time we spoke.
Don't think/read too much into the ILY. Could have been genuine, could have been guilt, could have been to string you along so you will him favors in the future, could be none of the above.
I would be suspicious of his motives if he is still seiing OW. So take care of yourself and don't put a whole of stock into what he said tonight.
M39 W41 Two children WAW bomb dropped 11/7/09 Piecing Aug 10 - Nov 10 No longer piecing...Nov 10 Separation Jan 11 EA ends again Feb 11 Piecing attempt #2, Mar 11
I don't know for sure what the OW is to him -- they do work together (but in different branches) -- I don't check the phone bill anymore so I don't know if they still text or not. It is what it is & all I can do right now is work on myself -- if he comes back to me I will be stronger, wiser, & more fulfilled with myself
