Hey pinhead, Just wanted to stop in and say hey! I see a lot has happened for you in your stitch always wish you the best! Maybe the new appt: is a good start & time apart. I don’t post a whole lot just because work, school is kicking my but this quarter & just trying to spend more time with my S when I can.
My stitch has not changed much although we are talking more as I'm tired of being angry and trying the forgiveness thing. It's definitely not easy I still think OM is involved somehow, but I have no control in that or this process.
Heck I move into a new place next month it might be a new start for me as well at least my S is really excited!! Who knows what may happen in a few months! We are going to meet with a mediator in the next few weeks after that our D will probably be during the holidays or the beginning of next year. (Which Sucks)!
I Know this maybe stupid, but the hope I have to save this M/ R is like a door that is shut and locked; behind the door is hope & maybe someday it will be opened again.(I know not very good oh well. Well take care I have to start another term paper! Later Hope
Thanks Hope! I understand what you mean about keeping the hope behind lock and key.
I'm really looking at the time apart as time for me. Time to write full time with far fewer distractions. Time to workout without juggling the girls schedules. Time to spend time on me instead of worrying about the relationship. And as much as I love taking care of the girls, providing for my wife, maintaining the house, doing almost 90% of the household chores, it'll be nice to have my W be responsible for doing it.
I'm sure there will be times when I'm really lonely. When the apartment seems dark and cold. I'll do my best to be prepared for those times, and have a plan! I have some really good friends, and a sister who has struggled with my indecision for months who'll talk me off any ledges!
Plus the apartment is really sweet. Very new, clean, bright, and in a great location. In some ways, waiting for Nov 6th will be hard as I want to get a move on...
And then I think of telling my daughters. I have to be strong for them, support them, quell their fears, give them my love all the time.
Hey pinhead, Taking a break from paper, funny thing I move on the 6th too. It's a much nicer place than where I'm now. Since I've moved out the W has kept the house the cleanest I have seen in yrs we were their(that was a big shock to me)!
For me join a 24 gym helps, as well as Starbucks, school, boarders, going out with friends, or going in too D.C. Also always spending time with my S is great too and taking our Dane for walks. Believe me even when you have a lot to do unfortunately the apartment gets cold and I'm not here a whole lot.
Hey you will do fine with your D's a great book is Divorce the Sandcastles Way to help kids cope and it helped the W & I understand a little more. Well gotta type some more so talk later. Hope
