No drama at all. Spending pretty much every free hour together.
Went to test drive a bunch of fun cars over the weekend. W is getting really excited to order her new wheels.
Baby shower on Sunday. Saw lots of old friends we haven't seen. W was acting like we were a "couple" again. Played pool and ping-pong and had tons of fun.
Last night she texted after work that she is having a drink with coworkers. I ignored it. An hour later she called and asked if I wanted to come there and join them for dinner. I paused for answer, because I really did not feel like going. She said, “That’s why I’m calling you from outside the place. I did not want to put you on a spot in front of them. If you don’t want to drive up I will leave now and we can meet somewhere else.”
I was fully expecting her to stay there without me, so I was caught off guard a bit. I told her that it would take me awhile to get there and that I would like to see them all. She said, “We will wait for you.”
This group of people from her office has been shielded from me for 5 months now. She claimed to have told everyone that we were done and that’s why I am not invited to any of their functions anymore although come of the people were friends with me before I even met her.
I did not know what to expect but decided to keep my head high.
Well, it turned out to be a very nice time and there was no one who looked at me or said anything awkward. I don’t think she ever told them anything about us. It was all angry bluff back then.
W initiated a lot of “we” talk and told stories from our past. It was all genuine with smiles and lot of eye contact. During the last work function I attended with her, she completely abandoned me for the entire night and we acted like total strangers. It has all changed.
So I am fully back in her circles now. It feels good and looks promising.
Now I have to figure out how to move back to the master bedroom.
I was lurking at Pinheads new post (which will be locked soon for too many posts)
and it got me thinking.
I'm finding myself in a similar moment of my journey. Now that everything has returned to pre-bomb era, I feel like the old relationship is trying to return.
I don't want it and I know that I have gained some control to make sure it won't.
I've been thinking about my life without my W. It is not easy.
He'll, I can't even find a porn site that would have anyone even remotely as beautiful as she is. Couple that up with her brains, personality and success, she would be the catch of the Century.
I've been chasing this fish for a long time. I turned my boat around and headed for the shore. I threw the last bait I had and the fish caught on.
Do I have the stength and skill to reel her in? Will my carbon fiber cable hold?
It is very strange to see that while I am implementing my wisdom she also has become very observing and smart about how to carry on conversations and interactions with others. Like she is learning something on her own. Or is it really the reaction to what I am doing?
Suddenly the "future talk" has started. Nothing specific to share.
I have not reacted to any of it and she has not offered anything solid - just small talk about vacations, things to do and places to go.
I am a patient guy and I have faith in myself that I will gain full control if this sitch.
I can see from her body language, wardrobe, tone of voice, eye contact, smiles and countless other signs that she is becoming attracted to me again.
But I don't want to find myself in Pinhead's shoes.
I have to give her a test. I am not sure yet what that would be. It may have to drop the "bomb". She is clearly no longer expecting me to move out. This may just hold the key, but I really don't want that kind of drama for myself and our "kids".
