My Rollercoaster Continues

[2gthrButApart]

I'm trying to be ok. Spoke to my midwife about how I'm feeling and she put me on a Rx for AD's and an appt for IC next week. So let's see if they can help me. She's worried about things leading to PPD. Which is what I'm worried about. But I just want to feel better.

[PEI]

2G,

Good for you for talking to your midwife, and the appt with an IC is a great idea.

This sucks, it really does ... I get it ... we all get it, BUT feeling better is a DECISION that YOU make. It might not feel like it, but spend some time reading the threads on here and you'll see it time and time again.

I have a question for you 2G ... are you gonna be a victim or a survivor?

PEI

[2gthrButApart]

I've been surviving 2 yrs since the bomb. The infidelity is a new blow that's killing me. I trusted him with all of my heart and he swore he'd never do that to me. He saw his own mom go through that and how it affected her. Yet he does it to me with no remorse while I'm pregnant. And makes plans to go spend 2 wks with her while I'm 9 months and can give birth at any moment.

[Truegritter]

I've been surviving 2 yrs since the bomb.

Is it the passage of TIME that makes you entitled to be a victim?

Or the attrocity of HIM taking OW away while you're pregnant?

I am not saying this stuff doesn't hurt and that you shouldn't feel pain.

At some point YOU have to decide what you will let HIM do to you.

YOU decide whether to be a victim.

We have a little saying (or I do)

There are no victims, only volunteers.

You have to decide to change this 2.

Only you can do it. And you CAN do it.

[PEI]

Is it the passage of TIME that makes you entitled to be a victim?

Or the attrocity of HIM taking OW away while you're pregnant?

I am not saying this stuff doesn't hurt and that you shouldn't feel pain.

At some point YOU have to decide what you will let HIM do to you.

YOU decide whether to be a victim.

We have a little saying (or I do)

There are no victims, only volunteers.

You have to decide to change this 2.

Only you can do it. And you CAN do it.

Sweetie, I get it ... this is rough. But Grit speaks the truth.

My question ... Have you been surviving? Or existing?

You can do this, you really can. Now it's up to you to choose to ...

What are you going to do for you today?

PEI

[ericmsant2]

2G

At some point YOU have to decide what you will let HIM do to you.

YOU decide whether to be a victim.

Read this ^^^^ again...and then again...and then again....and then again....

You are carrying a baby right now and so you want to remain as calm as you can - take this time (and I have said this to you...oh...15 times) and write down what YOU want for YOUR life.

Do you want to feel like chit? No - then choose NOT to.

Do you want to worry about OW? No - then choose NOT to.

Do you want YOUR H back? YES - Then drop the rope.. let go...what ever the f*ck ya wanna call it.

Protect yourself...no one BUT YOU will. It is after all YOUR life. It is your life to live, not YOUR H's to destroy.

Read Grit's post again..

So...are you a victim?

Eric

[2gthrButApart]

Well I was served today, in front of my kids. Nice.

[Truegritter]

2

Ok so now what?

Your worst nightmare is here...

5 months since your last post...

How are YOU doing?

[Cadet]

Congrats on the birth of your baby!

Keep taking care of those children.

They are your most important focus right now.

Make sure those papers take care of those kids!