I have sent pics to a whole bunch of people, the only ones brave enough to send me pics has been Jethro and Dave so far. I have a few other promises of pictures, but none yet.
Sorry I didnt mention how handsome you are Jethro, didnt think you would want to hear it from a man
Abby,
E-mail me your e-mail address at h2kwad@aol.com put "for Owen" in the subject line. Anyone else that wants pics of me and my family can e-mail me too, I will be more than glad to send them. You can also send me pics of you too. I would love to be able to put faces with the posts.
FLoyd The grass is always GREENER over the septic tank.
Jethro - thanks for stopping by my thread even though you were hurting so much over the weekend. Still in the process of catching up - and organizing myself for the job ordeal ahead.
Unfortunately I don't have much to add at the moment. I'll let you know if I have a brainstorm or not...
Hey, a little lighthearted fun on my "dark" thread. It's refreshing... Thanks to everyone for asking about my sister. She sounded so good when I talked to her on the phone yesterday.
Owen, thanks for the compliments to my family. And don't worry, if you had said I was handsome I'd be a little worried. Right Will?
RJJ, thanks to you also for the compliments. Of course you can send e-mails to that address.
Abby, I'll send you the pics...what's your e-mail address? In terms of my W's distance yesterday, she was okay...not as bad as I anticipated. We had dinner over at her friend's last night, then came home around 8:00 and talked for a while about this and that. She still has the wall up, though, and won't really share what's on her mind. This is really hard for me because there have been so many secrets so far that I want no more. If she's thinking about a S, at this point I'd probably just tell her to go ahead. That way, at least I could begin to get on with my life. I know, bad attitude...
Bob, no worries about posting. You have your hands full...
Hi Dienne!
Thanks for everyone's visit. Nothing much new to report. The old jethro showed up briefly last night grumped for a minute to W, then stopped and apologized. I think I'm being pushed to my limits. Things still totally suck. I CANNOT get this damn A out of my head...and Lord knows, I've tried. I find that it's very difficult to distract myself, as it's always hanging over my head. My concentration is totally hosed these days, and I have trouble sleeping. Frankly, I feel no better today than I did three weeks ago when I first found out. WHEN DOES IT END!?!?!? It's almost unbearable. I'm not confortable in my own skin...
Sorry for being a downer after everyone's lightheartedness...
try to focus on the growing r you have with w, yes there is still a bit of a wall but you cannot make assumptions about what lies on the other side of it (she may not be thinking of a s, she may be feeling badly for what has happend and not want to show it just as you are feeling badly about what happend and don't want to show it) try if you can to let go of the a (I know it's hard) realize that it was not and is not the "cause" of all the r problems it is but one of the symptoms. find the possitives like you and w talking about this and that, spending time with friends, going to church as a family, w hearing the message of the day that you too felt was for you. there are a lot of possitives, focus on them or you will be pulled into a neg world you don't want to live in.
Hi Jethro, This is becoming a busy place over the weekends. I have some catching up to do, but wanted to drop in to say...
Hang in there...
Each of us has to find their own way to work through this. I'm sorry the "tricks" others have mentioned haven't been to effective, but you will work through this. The tip JJ gave is a great one. Until I read it, I didn't really recognize I do the same, and did a lot of it this weekend. With my W's depression, I guess its easier to cast aside my thoughts in order to concentrate on lifting her spirits.
It also helps to recognize the baby steps for what they are. The way you described the vacuum incident, I preceive that she does understand you are hurting bad, but she also admires and appreciates the effort you are putting forth to work on putting it behind you.
I hate to hear you so discouraged. I am sorry this is so hard. I am feeling very discouraged and angry this week myself. Shall I practice my karate kicks for my H and your W?
When you get a chance, check your e-mail. I have sent you some pics!
Of course you can send e-mails to that address.