Logbook - Captains' Journal Astro date, August 2078 Me and H celebrated our 107 birthday today. Thank God for Alzheimer, some days I forget about his infidelity. When he remembers my name he asks what else he can do to be forgiven. That's when I usually get really mad at him and tell him I want out of this M and want to start over wth someone new that loves and appreciates me... Life is ahead of me and dont want to waste it. I dont want to settle!!
Funny post Maria. Except your hubby is born in June and you in March I believe... That is the question, what he can do to be forgiven? Only you have the answer...obviously you have forgiven him partially because you have accepted him back. Life is now Maria. You can plan and dream about the future and soemtimes remenisce about the past but LIFE IS NOW. Enjoy it! Embrace it! Wear some sexy underwear and don't sweat what you can't change!
Last night I had a dream my dad died. I went through the whole thing, my mom collapsing, my kids being sad, arranging for the burial, all the intense feelings that follow a death of a loved one. My dream stopped when we were at the cemetary. We say when we see death it means life for the person we see dying. I hope so.... K
I have had similiar dreams and woken up crying so hard. Nothing has happened to either of my parents so I hope that is true as well.
John is right you know. Life is here and now. I get caught up in things too and forget to enjoy the now, the today. It is really the only time that you know you have. Please make the most of it.
hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Logbook - Captains' Journal Astro date, August 2078 Me and H celebrated our 107 birthday today. Thank God for Alzheimer, some days I forget about his infidelity. When he remembers my name he asks what else he can do to be forgiven. That's when I usually get really mad at him and tell him I want out of this M and want to start over wth someone new that loves and appreciates me... Life is ahead of me and dont want to waste it. I dont want to settle!!
Sunshine
If I'm still dealing with these types of issues at 107 someone please shoot me It's uncanny how real dreams can be sometimes though. Some I wake up from and feel relieved it was just a dream - others I just want to go back to sleep and live in it!
If I'm still dealing with these types of issues at 107 someone please shoot me It's uncanny how real dreams can be sometimes though. Some I wake up from and feel relieved it was just a dream - others I just want to go back to sleep and live in it!
BA, that's exactly what I wrote on here 2 years ago talking about the possibility of being still here 2 years later as some of the vets back then told me.... Look where I am at?
... [I] get really mad at him and tell him I want out of this M and want to start over wth someone new that loves and appreciates me... Life is ahead of me and dont want to waste it. I dont want to settle!! ...
This is the sort of knee-jerk reaction and threats that's probably very hurtful to him and could drive him to say or do something hurtful back, even to infidelity again (at 107!).
In all likelihood if you are patient then wisdom and forgiveness will come to you one day at a time or perhaps suddenly. Perhaps as a result of some life-changing event where you get to see his better side. (Perhaps he'll be good with the great great grand kids)
