Had a fab day yesterday. As usual left the cramming for the course to the last minute and ended up being up till 0100 the night before. But then I'm a master crammer lol.
Course went well and got recommended to instruct on in next time. Then went for pizza and to the pub with a good friend, had several beers to celebrate, met some lovely boys with whom we did the unexpected pub quiz!
Fantastic.
Looking forwards to meeting the new lass at the weekend. Fingers crossed!
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Great insight on X being a "romance junkie." Sorry that you had to see that now, but at least you have that clarity.
It would be funny to bet on how many commitment ceremonies before you are officially D'd, but let's not--that would be putting too much thought/energy into X, and not enough on lees.
And her lassies.
You are moving fast and well--keep your mind open to the insights and understandings as they come. They can hurt but they help with the healing.
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Me: 44 Him: 42 Together: 23 years; never married Bomb: August 1, 2009 Affair since May 2009 Walk away; no conversation; no process
Golfer just had to go into hospital. Bummer as I'm all booked up for the next 3 weekends now, and we're too far apart to do evening trips.
Not sure whether she'll be out tomorrow, or be driving for 3 hrs to get here if she is. Have offered to go to hers instead, but not ideal with her family situation at the moment being a bit complicated and her bro living with her.
Hope she is OK.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Struggling with it all today and feeling quite down. Plans for weekend well and truly scuppered. Golfer seems to be ignoring me, able to chat on facebook to others but not able to let me know what has happened/is going on or reply to my txt asking if she is OK.
No time in my life for those with poor manners, especially when I've gone to a significant effort. I don't mind the expense, but I do mind the courtesy.
Fortunately one of my colleagues has stepped in to take the ticket at the last minute, so at least that's one positive.
I really hate dating. Always have. Can't I just cut to the comfortable old shoes stage of the relationship without all the ridiculous hassle one has to go through first?
WAW seems to have managed to do so - yet another example of the unfairness of it all.
Bah humbug.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
I look at all my friends, with their families and partners - they all have at least one. What am I looking forwards to? I have no family to speak of. The days tick by where I've even less chance of having one of my own - I do still very much feel that my best childbearing years have been cruelly snatched away by the WAW. There don't seem to be any available persons which fit my criteria for a partner, and I'm not going to lower those standards. A lifetime of solitude. Can't wait.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Lees you are still young.It will happen when you are ready and you have healed and you still have a way to go.You put on a brave face for the world which is admirable but sometimes you just have to be honest with yourself and those around you.You have lots to offer and you will find the right person..you can still have a child on your own..even if not what you had planned you cud still do it.You are still very raw and its early days..so take one day at a time and it will come to you as you have dreamed.Hope you enjoyed ur outing even although it was a little different from what was planned...((hugs))
ME 44 H 45 D 14 D 20 M 22 YEARS TOGETHER 28YEARS Bomb Drop 14th July 09 Seperated-living with OW 10mths(14/07/09) MLC 3years
Silence wasn't golden in this marriage; it was deadly," Dr. Robin L. Smith
Spamalot was fantastic thanks. Good night out with one of my esteemed colleagues.
Having a bit of a dip at the moment with the thought of another 12 months of working with that evil woman about 3/5 shifts taking it's toll. Tried to talk to one of my bosses about it was told to "grow up, and keep my personal life personal and professional life professional." Damn I love working in a macho world.
If only there were jobs in Scotland, or all my savings hadn't been wiped out by a wedding and then setting up a new home alone in quick succession.
How is it possible that two people can so astronomically mess up every aspect of my life and then just ride happily away into the sunset whilst I'm left to battle on in a pile of c**p mostly pretending to be positive?
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
Lees they will continue to destroy themselves and others.They cannot destroy you unless you let them.They are not worth it.Start building a scrap book of pics that reflect what you want your life to look like,set some goals and whilst Scotland isnt a possibility right now you can make it one. As for you boss F*** him/her you have many friends who will help you through this...
ME 44 H 45 D 14 D 20 M 22 YEARS TOGETHER 28YEARS Bomb Drop 14th July 09 Seperated-living with OW 10mths(14/07/09) MLC 3years
Silence wasn't golden in this marriage; it was deadly," Dr. Robin L. Smith
- Complete paeds subspeciality year successfully (well on track) - Get randomised controlled trial in progress (not so well on track) - Start new job well without killing OW - Get more kitesurfing and walking done - Continue to lose weight
Mid term goals:
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
