My answer is corny, but I had a happy childhood. My Dad's Nickname for me was Punkin, and when all this came down, I really, really wanted to go to 'my happy place'. I also knew my WH would never find it.
are you kidding me, means just that. Had a wife that was so wrapped up in not ever going to divorce or fall out of love, when it all went nuts, I went are you kidding me.