I didn't mention anything about an open marriage. He knows I wouldn't go for it, that's why he wants to separate. But there currently isn't anyone else, at least physically. He is home, if he is not at work.
OK, why is everyone looking at me???
Puppy
This is all you!
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
I have a couple of months ago, when I first started feeling something wasn't right, there wasn't anything then. He left his acct unlocked, so I looked! But usually it is locked with a password, so I don't know...
Well last night he was huggy as he has been. looking at me with the puppy dog eyes. He told me once again that he misses us.
After i go to bed, he comes into the bedroom lays on the bed kinda on me and puts his arms around me. Then he asks me what I want, I screwed up and told him that I want things to be as they used to be, when it was good. He asked me if I thought it would magically just be alright? I told him I know that it would take some work!!
I feel like he's just been playing games with me!! I don't even know what to do?? I am so lost!
1 good thing, I know that he is still attracted to me!! I guess that is a good thing? Isn't it?
I only post on here when I am at work, because I don't want him to know that I do. I wouldn't put it past him! He's been looking at our cell phone acct online, asking me why I was talking to my parents yesterday?? I think he may be afraid that I might be seeing someone else??
Unfortunately we leave for Disney World for our "Family Vacation" on Monday morning! I am looking forward to that! I'm just gonna have a good time regardless of him! And look my best while doing it!!
