Been awhile since I have been here...Alot has happened..Short recap...married 19 years....Seperated May o8 Divorced Oct. 08....OM surfaced July 08......Back and forth communication before and after divorce......My mom died Jan. 2010 and ex and I have spent alot of time together..... Feb. 2010, ex asked if I would be willing to go to counseling with her.....I agreed on condition we would not be seeing anyone else....She agreed....
We both said that we were not sure if it would lead to reconciliation, but would at least help us move on.....We are not seeing anyone else and she has not talked to OM for six weeks....
Counseling has been pretty tough and I have been made out to be the worst husband in the world.....I have accepted my responsibility in this messed up marriage, but have thrown alot back at her....We seem to making alot of progress, but we are both very much on guard and leary of each other...
This week, after a very intense session that would have usually had us about ready to kill each other, we went out to eat and I asked her if she wanted to go away for the weekend(something I had already planned to do, but almost didn't because of what had just happened.) She agreed and seems to be very excited about going...I am excite too, but do not know WTH to make of all this...
I am just going with the flow and not expecting too much...I am not going to get my hopes up, and honestly I am not sure what I want....I am going to go and have a good time and see what happens....Please, someone tell me what you make of this....Thanks
If I where you I would try to not make too much of it. Just enjoy the moments you have with her. Is that not what we all want some peaceful loving companionship. If you make too much of it you set up too many expectations which means stress.
Probably very hard to do (at least for me it would be).
Thanks for the reply, Koekie....No, I am not making too much of this....Been down this road before....We are at a strange place right now....Niether of us are seeing anyone and we are spending some time together without alot of expectations.....It is good to actually be able to sit and listen to what her side of this wrecked marriage was.....Don't quite agree with all she says, but it is nice to have her viewpoint.....
I don't know where it is headed, but she is coming around some I think....I am at a good place......I am willing to try if things continue the way they are, but if we see down the road it is not meant to be, then I believe I will be ok......That's about all I know to do right now....
