Follow through Make your dreams come true Don't give up the fight You will be alright 'Cause there's no one like you in the universe
Don't be afraid What your mind conceives You should make a stand Stand up for what you believe And tonight We can truly say Together we're invincible
During the struggle They will pull us down But please, please Let's use this chance To turn things around And tonight We can truly say Together we're invincible
Do it on your own It makes no difference to me What you leave behind What you choose to be And whatever they say Your souls unbreakable
During the struggle They will pull us down But please, please Let's use this chance To turn things around And tonight We can truly say Together we're invincible Together we're invincible
During the struggle They will pull us down Please, please Let's use this chance To turn things around And tonight We can truly say Together we're invincible Together we're invincible
Not sure what locked my thread but I'm hoping this song will start me off on the right foot with this one.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
I'm reaching, working at it, hopefully it will get better.
Hot chocolate on it's way right now! Extra rich....marshmallows?
I talked and cried with my cousin last night and admitted out loud how horrible I've been feeling and how frustrated I am with myself. She told me flat out that she knew I was seriously down and that was why she was trying to encourage me to talk when I was with her and our other cousin Sunday. I wouldn't and she finally let it go. She's not convinced that I don't still love Gabe at some level. I don't love him but somewhere inside I still feel like I'm attached to him. There is no way to explain it though. Intellectually, I know he's toxic. My stupid heart still reacts to him in ways I don't understand that make me very upset. Ugh!
Whatever.
Get past it already Mich!!!!!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
She's not convinced that I don't still love Gabe at some level. I don't love him but somewhere inside I still feel like I'm attached to him. There is no way to explain it though. Intellectually, I know he's toxic. My stupid heart still reacts to him in ways I don't understand that make me very upset. Ugh!
I think on some level therre will always be some type of love for the X. You fall in love, you get married, you have kids. There are so many feelings involved, that you can't just flip a switch and turn them off. (Even though that is what the WAS seems to do....but they are aliens!!!)
"You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf." Jon Kabat-Zinn
Yeah, I wish!!! When things were bad but we were still together my X would say that I hated him. As I often said to him, if I hated him it would be much easier!!!
"You can't stop the waves, but you can learn to surf." Jon Kabat-Zinn
I'm an idiot sometimes. I swear, I can't force a boundary to save my life.
Gabe called me - at work mind you which he NEVER does. He asked if the computer at 'home' was working. That irked me that he would refer to MY home as home. GAG. Ok...let it go, let it go. I was so busy and caught off guard that I could think fast enough and was honest (WTH was I thinking being honest? ) and told him it was. He needed to print something and can't do that at the library where he uses the computer apparently. I told him that was fine and hung up quickly. It really peeves me off (at myself, not him) that I couldn't think fast on my feet while I was doing 3 other things at the same time and tell him some fib or other. Why do I make things so easy on him? Oh well....too late now. There is just no good way to keep him out of my life is there?
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
Better watch out with that response though. He might run over and try to fix it! lol Maybe if you told him that you were out of ink or something along those lines. I doubt he would spring for a cartridge of ink.
Chin up hon. It will get better.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
Yeah, he won't spring for ink but he used up most of mine. The man doesn't know how to put it on economy setting so printed 21 pages on high quality. GGGGGRRRRRRRRRR!
My hope for this weekend......ZERO contact with Gabe. That would make me quite happy. It totally ticks me off that my emotions get stirred up when even when he just calls about something mundane. There are obviously feelings still on my side that I haven't been able to get rid of and they're going to kill me!
No plans for this weekend. I wanted to go see Muse tomorrow night but couldn't get tickets so that's out. It's going to be cold so outdoor activities are out (I'm a BIG whimp!). Maybe I can convince a friend to go to the $ movie theater. She doesn't usually go anywhere unless it's with her H and kids. We'll see.....
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
) and told him it was. He needed to print something and can't do that at the library where he uses the computer apparently. I told him that was fine and hung up quickly. It really peeves me off (at myself, not him) that I couldn't think fast on my feet while I was doing 3 other things at the same time and tell him some fib or other. Why do I make things so easy on him? Oh well....too late now. There is just no good way to keep him out of my life is there?
