I'm here...by the grace of God.

[ginab1966]

Hi everyone:

This is my first post over on this side of things….

I went to an IC appt. this weekend and believe that I’ve stayed off of this thread because I am fearful that what’s happening isn’t going to last or isn’t real. However the truth is, that we’ve just recently weathered our first crisis while piecing and we did pretty well. We came out a bit bruised and battered but wiser on the other side.

If any of you care to see the background, here are the two threads that I had going while we were in the “thick of it”.

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1824627&page=1

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1864942&page=1

Recently, during our piecing crisis, I posted on the WAW board. But today, especially after the wonderful weekend we had….it’s time to come on here. I can’t freak out every time we get into a tricky situation and I have to stop listening to people who keep telling me to leave.

Truth time…..my H is not the man I should be with. I should’ve worked out my self esteem issues LONG before we met and that girl, the more confident one, would have most certainly chosen differently. But, I didn’t and this is the man I married (second marriage by the way) and had my amazing daughter with. This is the father of my child and the person I made a convenent to love and stand by the rest of my life. That said, I’m not the W he would’ve chosen if he had all his stuff worked out too. Believe me, for as much issues as he has, I’ve got them to match.

We’re in it trying to do our best to keep our daughters world in tack and also doing our best to model the best possible relationship for her. We fail at that sometimes but I believe the fact that we are so committed to trying is what will keep us in it for the long haul. God, it’s so scary to write that sentence. 6 months ago I wouldn’t have dreamed of writing that sentence. I had all I could do to get up, breath, go to work and take care of our DD. Now I say it and 90% of me believes it. It’s truly a miracle.

I just wanted to start this journey over here FINALLY. I have read so many posts on this forum and have learned so much from many of you. I will continue to post here and continue to learn. From all of my 12-step work I understand that my participation by “coming back” also helps others and I can be of service this way. Through my service to others is where the healing really begins. Thanks to all for listening and being there.

Gina B

[ericmsant2]

Hi Grace - I just responded to your old post. The message was along the line of....congrats and keep up the hope. May God Bless you and your family. I know that you can do this. BTW - look me up on FB.

Eric

[Tomato]

It is awesome that the Lord is working in the ways that He is for you guys. I wish you much continued success and a great many blessings for a joyous M that you both are fighting for. It takes great courage and I am happy to see you have it.

Of course, prayers for your family & a big welcome and a ((( Gina + fam ))).

Ted

[Tomato]

i guess you have an alias ..grace? I do that too for IRS purposes ..lol

T

[ginab1966]

OHHHHHH FB.....cool. I'm on there too!!! great. I'm a FB junkie! Same name? I'll friend ya tonight.

[ericmsant2]

Yes same name.

[ericmsant2]

Gina - just checking in...how are you doing?

[dday101798]

6 months ago I wouldn’t have dreamed of writing that sentence.

And, here you are now. Congrats. Do as you know in your heart of hearts, and don't let any naysayer sway you or anger you. Only you know what is best for all involved in your sitch.

[pearlharbr]

Truth time…..my H is not the man I should be with. I should’ve worked out my self esteem issues LONG before we met and that girl, the more confident one, would have most certainly chosen differently. But, I didn’t and this is the man I married (second marriage by the way) and had my amazing daughter with. This is the father of my child and the person I made a convenent to love and stand by the rest of my life. That said, I’m not the W he would’ve chosen if he had all his stuff worked out too. Believe me, for as much issues as he has, I’ve got them to match.

Wow, that's so refreshing to hear gina! Especially since I'm struggling with whether or not BF is the right person for me. Since we don't have children there's nothing really tying me to him except history. I chose him several years ago without much thought, we just never stopped the first date. Would the person I am now choose him? Not sure yet. But I love him and before all this happened I assumed that we would be together forever. Maybe that's enough.

Thanks for offering a pov I haven't come across yet.

[Butterfly1]

Congratulations and welcome. I too often wonder if I should be here, but if you feel you should, that's what you should listen to.