I had a pretty good time in vegas despite how I've been feeling lately. It was nice to see the kids happy. I almost cancelled it because I just didn't feel up to it but seeing the kids have a good time made it worth it.
My best friend kept asking me if I was ok on monday so I guess I wasn't hiding my feelings too well that day. That night we saw the light show at the Bellagio - I'm sure you guys know. They were playing the song by Andrea Bocelli "time to say goodbye" well...it was a beautiful windy night and that song...even though its such a lovely song it's kinda sad. It took everything in my power to not burst into tears. That was awful. I didn't expect that at all but everything came flooding. All in all we had a good time and things went smoothly. I'm glad I went and my kids ran from their stress for a couple days.
Anyway...I am going to have a meeting with my L today about our finances. Things are not going well and it seems to be dragging on. My car payment is late and other things are piling up. I'm feeling very sad and stressed today - last night no sleep and a bad dream about X. Ugh.
PMA? nope...not today
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
When I'm feeling "very sad and stressed" I try to keep in mind that these emotions always move up and down and if I just wait it out, I'll feel a little better soon. The roller coaster ride is tiring, but at least you know it's gonna go back up.
Vegas sounds like fun. I'm looking for somewhere to take my two teenagers for a summer vacation. What did your teens think of it?
M:42|W:40|D:17|S:13|Bomb:10/23/09 Awoken's Current Thread
I had a pretty good time in vegas despite how I've been feeling lately. It was nice to see the kids happy. I almost cancelled it because I just didn't feel up to it but seeing the kids have a good time made it worth it.
Luv- I'm really glad you went anyway and were able to at least enjoy your kids' enjoyment. It's tough to drag yourself somewhere when you absolutely don't feel like going- you did good.
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They were playing the song by Andrea Bocelli "time to say goodbye" well...it was a beautiful windy night and that song...even though its such a lovely song it's kinda sad. It took everything in my power to not burst into tears. That was awful. I didn't expect that at all but everything came flooding.
I love/hate that song. If you ever need a good cry, it's perfect. But I can totally relate to being taken by surprise in hearing it and not being fully prepared.
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Anyway...I am going to have a meeting with my L today about our finances. Things are not going well and it seems to be dragging on. My car payment is late and other things are piling up. I'm feeling very sad and stressed today - last night no sleep and a bad dream about X. Ugh.
I am so sorry that the $ situation is not happy right now. I really hope your L can help out here, at least getting you some temporary help til some agreement is reached. I can't remember, did H move out? If so, is that helping at all to not be around him?
((((luv))))
When the men on the chessboard Get up and tell you where to go; And you've just had some kind of mushroom And your mind is moving slow; Go ask Alice... I think she'll know.
Hey alice - thanks for the supportive post. When I filed my L advised me to get Mr. Luv out of the house and issued a court order for that. I'm fighting being sad about this situation - so hard!
CG - meeting with L went ok - we spent two hours going over my finances and he explained to me how the now and the future would look like. I am disappointed with the early numbers because Mr. Luv makes very good money. He will not be taking the hit I will - NOT fair.
I was feeling really upset earlier but I'm better now. I'm staying positive. My older son said, "dad text me and said you should do such and such" I said, "tell your dad if he wants anything from me to communicate with ME not you!" He text me for the first time in weeks today about IRS issues. It's disgusting because I wrote him about a serious issue with D hurting herself and he did not respond. It's only when the IRS threaten to take money out of his check does he respond - puke.
Ok I am going to try and have a good evening with the kids. I heart them.
Luv
Awoken - I'm not sure if Vegas is a good place to take teens. There isn't much to do except shopping/walking the strip and restaurants. It's kinda cool though if it's a short trip to see the lights and night and spend time together in the day by the pool.
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M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
I had another restless nights sleep. I'm so tired but I'm ok. I feel ok today.
I've been productive today by getting paperwork and things in order.
I just poured my first glass of wine (the pinot noir from Mumm) that X husband wanted when he came to get his stuff. Sweet feeling sipping and thinking he won't get to taste :)~
Hope everyone is having a good Thursday.
I Luv Yoo
M44 H41 M20 T23 3 older teens Bomb Nov 09 "i'm not happy" EA Nov 09 w/coworker Another PA in Mar 10 I Filed Apr 10 D final Dec 10
I just poured my first glass of wine (the pinot noir from Mumm) that X husband wanted when he came to get his stuff. Sweet feeling sipping and thinking he won't get to taste :)~
Luv, at least he has taste! I have three bottles of it! YUM! Nothing like a nice red pinot! Double YUM!
Me-46, D-21, S15, S13
After many years w/my head in the sand... I FILED Divorced 6/2011
The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.
