But I did come to more of an re-affirmation of my goals in life and how I am not a lousy person and this period in my life will make me a better person regardless the outcome. (Have proof positive of this on the bathroom scale, I have lost 20lbs and Im short of my goal by only 8 more!)
Good morning Wired! It's wonderful to hear you've realized you're not a lousy person at all! You're a kind decent person who's made a difference in a lot of lives - mine included! Do you remember back when I first started posting and you commented about 'the frying pan'? Well I can't tell you how many times I'd be dragging myself through another one-sided 'discussion' with my H, or angry at him for something-or-other, and out of nowhere I'd remember you saying that and well - I'd have to turn my head or cover my mouth to keep from laughing right out loud! Just about spit some cereal out once, if memory serves. Anyways, I'm sorry your W hasn't changed her mind yet, but just wanted to share that thought with you. Glad to hear you're smiling and have a spring in your step today.
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
Hiya Prairie, Was just sitting here thinking about something I should have added to the post I made in your stitch. I have come to the point where I accept what is in front of me and I am going to make it through this regardless of the outcome. Goals have been set, boundaries drawn and I do not look at the past anymore.
Im over the resentment, the self pity, the... well I was going to say pain but that one still creeps in from time to time. But I am continuing forward with the knowledge that I have done everything humanly possible and will continue to do so to try to save my marriage.
M:40 W:40 D: 21 S: 18 D: 17 Md: 18 years -1/19/2010 W wants out -6/03/10 "Live for today, for tomorrow is promised to no-one.."
I have come to the point where I accept what is in front of me and I am going to make it through this regardless of the outcome.
It's so good to hear you speaking positively Wired. Big hugs to you for all the work and self-reflection you've done, to get you to this place. Well done! (((Wired))) Yay!
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.