In my last thread I was contemplating the worse case scenario.
It has been one year since I began here. Since things were not where I wanted them to be I assumed that they had not changed. Recently I consulted with another therapist and was awakened to a new way of viewing what is.
This person pointed out the changes that I overlooked and I am posting this for others' benefit as well as my own. Sometimes we overlook the baby steps of change when things don't happen the way we want it to or in the timing we hope for.
I have been so focused on instant change and getting things back to normal. I missed the smaller steps and failed to notice the work that my H was making this year. It has been a monumental year of change and I almost missed it.
When looking at change I failed to see how the patterns shifted from worse to better and from daily to weeks at a time. Both the shift in time and intensity have changed. Is my H perfect? NO! Is the R how I want it? No! Is it better? Definitely! Did it need to change? YES! Will it continue to change? YES! Am I changing? YES! Is it hard work or easy? HARD!
The second point I want to make tonight is this: what is it that makes things so hard for me or for yourself?
